Irasshai!

2012, the year of calamity in all aspects?

2012-01-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

once again I come back here at my most aimless part of my life...

I don't understand the point of living.
Why must I study? Why must I have certificates? A Diploma? A Degree?
All to get a good job. But what's there to a job?
Everything can be answered but I can throw more questions.

I think these 3 words seem to best answer "Why am I born?"
It is "Born To Die".

If you're born with so many incorrigible aspects, I don't see how to live on.

I never get what I want, the stuff with utmost importance I mean.
Sure enough I may say I want Money, Good Grades etc.
These are actually trivial matters.
Having money and good grades does not really make you worth living.
That's my opinion...
I want the best of personality, which is impossible to obtain in my sake.
I've already tried many ways and persistently believed I can change.
It's already been over 2 years, I'm the same old bloody introvert, unfriendly, quiet, lazy, incompetent bastard.

I don't think I'm worth anybody's time/friendship/acknowledgement at all.
I may have a certain amount of talent in music, not poor, not physically disabled.
But I'd rather give them all up to those who truly need them,
and in exchange erase my existence.
Come on, I vigilantly watched my surroundings for far too long already.
I know what's what.
Turns out I'm hardly worth anything.

I can't ever get things right.. anything..
I can't achieve good grades to go to the school I want
I can't make the first move in talking to people
I can't make an effort to start a conversation
I can't make an effort to organise events
I can't create music
I can't choose the right path to walk down
I can't shape myself up be it physically/mentally/emotionally/academically
I can't, just about everything

Please God, I'm already torn down.
So just sweep the Earth & remove me & my existence from the world.
Erase Me.
Thank You & much appreciation

Birth of life - Only meant for Suffering

2011-09-06T17:54:00.002+08:00

I never blog for 2 months already.
Always very lazy and feel like blog is really outdated already.

On to pour out, after all life sucks!

I'm so glad I'm having my Poly holiday now.
Although it's 6 weeks, I'm 100% sure it'll pass TOO QUICKLY.
In fact, this year seems to pass by pretty fast.
That's good lah, during Poly academic terms of course.
I still am not used to Poly and never will be.
Still being shunned aside, because I guess I don't fit in.
Guess one has to be very social, talented or attractive to make friends?
I'm not any of that, then I guess I am left alone.
Even though sometimes I do talk to some of the classmates, it's only temporary.
I travel alone everywhere in it all the time.

Maybe this kinda runs in the family too?
I've absolutely no friends now in Poly.
Then I complained to my brother how he so social I so unsocial.
Turns out he also in Poly no friends, only most of the time chat with sec school.
My sister also, in Uni, she only got that 1 friend, but most of the time absent!
Then I don't feel that bad already.
But still, I see so many people around me have so much fun in Poly,
I'm suffering in anguish, cause of my lack in everything.
I pray to God that the 3 years fly by at extremespeed!
Quick! I wanna go army, because Poly is like hell already.

Anyway, on Thursday last week, was TPSS teachers' day celebration.
The day before it I went to Bedok Interchange to look for stuff to get for teachers!
This time, I wanted to give to all my teachers from Sec 1 to Sec 4.
So I made 13 presents. It's just some snacks/sweets wrapped in transparent plastic,
Then I made a lil envelope card for each of the teachers.
Went back at about 9.15am I guess.
NCT, Elena, Alicia and Shirley were there, and we stood watch the concert.
It was kinda boring lah the concert. After finish NCT went off early (Ungrateful!Lol)
Elena talked to a junior for dunno how long till disappear.
Then Me Alicia and Shirley met Mdm Loh! Talked for some time.
Then Mdm Loh led me around in staff room put all my cher day gifts.

End up left gifts for HOD chers, so she told me go 3rd floor the AVA room there.
Wah there ah, got some grand party! Buffet trays outside, then inside,
Half the room occupied with dining tables, long ones, all the chers eating there.
Then the other half, got 2 table booths, for manicure, facepaint & hair services!
Then got 3 SPA BEDS also! The chers get to have facial by student helpers.
I saw Miss Koh was braiding her hair, then Miss Tan was doing manicure.
Talked to Miss Tan for some time so nice.
Later so sad Chi Ju and the rest of JC people got locked out the gate,
cause too late, luckily I ask Mrs Chng and Miss Rafidah.
They go over to the gate so nice! Then Mrs Chng called Mdm Loh and she rushed down!
Had great chat.

Later part, had a mini 4E1 gathering,
I think it was actually quite fun lah, but I was pretty tired that day,
Slept for 3hours only.
While alot of them played pool, me Marshall Manru Yushan Cindy Natasha went pasta mania eat and then slacked.
Had Cupwalker so damn nice and cheap! Tampines must have one!
Then went up pool room slack with my Mac.
Didn't bother playing pool cause I find it quite boring to play.
Then the rest went for dinner, and we all catched The Smurfs in cinema.
The show was actually great even though initially I thought it'll be too kiddy.

After that rushed off, didn't say goodbye properly cause rushing,
went to eat late dinner with Chi Ju.
The dinner sucked, but anyway great outing and great teachers day still!

Hope to have more fun outings more often...
All the best to all JC people studying their brains off!
I can feel the toughness and stress for them even though i'm not in JC.
All the best to eryone's promos!

Lil Monsters goes Gaga

2011-07-23T22:09:00.005+08:00

LIL MONSTERS & I

Never updated for a long time.
Have to keep up with any important events or complaining lol.

On 4th of July, Monday.
Singtel held a "Lil Monsters goes Gaga" event where up to 150 get to dress up Gaga-inspired outfits and get on stage perform for a panel of judges for a minute.
100 will stand a chance to win a ticket to Lady Gaga's Singtel Showcase on 7 July Thursday.

So, I die die want a ticket! So luckily at Grad Night I got my Gaga props!
I wear that go and then perform The Edge of Glory (sing only).
Luckily quite a lot of people like my dress-up!

Met a lot of fellow Lil Monsters all were so nice and supportive!
Everyone dressed and performed great too.
And the judges were so happy with the costumes and performances,
that they decided to give all who participated 2 tickets each!
That was very orgasmic and full of ecstasy! I'm so happy too I got 2 tix see Gaga.
Got interviewed like 4 times throughout the whole day.

Oh yah, and I skipped school! Even though it was Youth Day.
Poly students like me are considered adult and old and mouldy, so no Youth Day off.
But I skipped school for Gaga's sake! To queue up early, was afraid cant get in.
But it turned out well! Got to perform, and win 2 tickets unexpectedly!
Marshall & Maziyah came to support me thanks to them too!

Anw, had quite a blast then, even though I was very nervous to perform.
But was all worth it! Got to see Gaga up close!
The showcase was crazy! I love it! Gave Marshall the 1 more ticket I got.
And Gaga was so white and slutty up close! I like!
And her voice and dance as usual so powerful.
Also, she cried during her acoustic performance of Hair,
Coz all of us lil monsters sang the whole lyrics!
I love that she held her hands to her heart and cried moving tears.
Then she said "Thanks for learning the lyrics in just 4 weeks you crazy kids."

When she first came to Singapore, she like never tweet much or appear much.
So I felt as though she don't really enjoy being in Singapore.
Except that she like the food! But she wasn't very vocal about being in SG.
But after the showcase, she did voice out her positive opinion of SG!
Because she love us SG lil monsters! She was touched.

Anw, the whole week was crazy and fun and heartwarming.
Lady Gaga will most likely come back again for F1 Race concert or something,
and most importantly ,she PROMISED to come to SG for her Born This Way Ball tour!
I will save up and get the tickets!

("")("")

Best day to remember - 4E1'10 Outing

2011-06-19T21:12:00.003+08:00

On Thursday (16 June 2011) 4E1 outing!
Very long time never meet all of them. I miss eryone.
The outing was a great success in my opinion.

First, woke at 9.30am then go to MRT take till Tiong Bahru by accident.
Dunno why I think I dreaming then overshot by 1 stop.
Take back to Outram Park then go to NorthEast line to go Harbourfront to meet.
At Harbourfront the MRT I met Faizah, Eng Peng and Jia Xin!
Talked to them and I still like Eng Peng's diction so good.

Reached Harbourfront and we were the first.
I called Liqing she and the rest on the way.
Then they all literally arrive together! One big group!
Chat chat while hanging around MRT, and waiting for the other boys to turn up.
Jody liked me hair! Then ke$ha, zhenqi agnes etc like my giant headphones lol.
Later the other boys arrived together and everyone walked to Vivo City.
Not to 4get, Ke$ha brought a straw hat very fun!
Walked with Wei Heng they all then Liqing let everyone go eat lunch till 12.30pm.
Me Wei Heng Fadzli Darren Daniel went to Burger King eat.
Lol at first when deciding where to eat, look at the directory board.
Darren blurly saw "Shop Name" as literally, a shop name haha.
Coz the font & size for the heading "Shop Name" same as the listed shop names below.

Bought mushroom swiss meal. Ate and listen to them talk abt a lot JC stuff...
Then went up to the open air roof place thingy where got shallow waters where lolitas play at.

Walked around aimlessly there coz Liqing sms Fadzli say meet at dunno where
We couldn't really locate the place. After that meet at the monorail ticket area.
Apparently it costs $3 for monorail in and out Sentosa.
Went on monorail and talked with Wei Heng Liqing Zhenqi Natasha on the way.
They brought a volleyball (Natasha's) to play later.
Reached Sentosa then walked towards Siloso Beach.
Dunno who bought 2 mats and $2 ea then eryone put bags there.
I sat on the mats with Faizah, and I read my Chopin book.
Lol Faizah bought a Sudoku book from Vivo then she sit there do.
So hot then she borrow my umbrella sit and do Sudoku.
Wei Heng Fadzli Darren Daniel and I think Natasha and Chong Teng played volleyball
Really just passing around only with volleyball tactics.
The girls like Ke$ha Jody etc. went into the water.

After that I joined the "volleyball" game abit.
Can hit surprisingly but sometimes off course lor.
Later we move to another part coz the ball keep ending up nearly hitting nearby ppl.
Wei Heng and Fadzli drew court markings on the sand lol.
Then made somewhat an actual game! And it was like guys VS gals...
I stand at side be referee! I think score ended up 20-14.
At another side, Ke$ha was starting to bury herself in the sand by the gals help.
I went over and help also! Then created sand boobs for ke$ha with natasha hhaha.
But Ke$ha keep destroying her boobs coz she dowan obscene stuff.
Then I made sand balls on her below so hope she cant destroy coz far.
But she had long tranny-arms can reach and then destroyed the balls.
(Luckily picture was taken before destruction!
Then had more fun, carved 6-pack on her sand stomach.
Carve mermaid tailfin scales, then I wrote "Ke$ha" on her bottom mermaid tail.
Also, later made feet sticking out at her base there with Faizah.
I tried to make toes also but hard to make sand rigid, then looked nasty.

Later walk back mat area sit down drink water, Liqing there sitting down
I think she played with her ipod. Then talk with her and all!
Then my pants was a bit loose that day so behind a bit open.
Wei Heng go and sneak up behind and pour sand in my underwear there!
Couldnt get all the sand out!! I revenged pour sand in his back.
Later, go back Ke$ha area, then Alicia was trying to bury her leg into a mountain.
I help bury also and then Jody tried bury herself too.
(Before that, Jody was running around giving free hugs coz she was wet lol)

Then I think Paul Prestela came later,
they played frisbee, then Wei Heng keep throwing/pouring sand at me.
I also try revenge. He keep hiding behind ppl so I can't throw at him.
So funny when he hide behind Prestela then she scream coz scared later I throw at her
When Wei Heng hide behind Paul, he disturbing Paul playing volleyball with the rest.
Later I walked with Wei Heng go Macdonald a lil far away.
Bought Green tea there coz super thirsty. Wanted treat Wei Heng
But he managed slip money in my pocket. He found 5cents there at Mcdonald oso...
On way back, bumped into Uncle Cherd, Feebas, and Feebas jr.
They also went Siloso Beach play arnd but then going home alr.

After that went back, I gave 1 free Green tea to everyone!
Lol Jody joked "Buy 1 only???!!"
Later continue playing, and aiming Wei Heng with sand.
Oh yes, before that, when Wei Heng went off dunno where,
Su Yi, sister Yu Huan and I buried Wei Heng's slippers and built a sand man on top.
Later Wei Heng managed to find anw...
Later part I caught Wei Heng off guard coz he playing frisbee,
I poured sand into his pants, but then his pants not loose so I don't think much went in.

Luckily, I brought extra clothes, even though I din plan get dirty or wet.
Went to the showers and showered off fugly sand quickly.
Darren showered pretty fast I din even see him go in or out of shower.
I also showered quite fast though, Wei Heng quite long.
After that, everyone cleaned up, then wait outside toilets.
Deciding where to eat, coz just found out Aston ain't halal.
Seoul Garden suggested, some ppl agree, but some dowan.
Later just continue walk back to monorail, haven't decide.
Got random strangers to talk class photo for us halfway.
Funny Eng Peng din join us in the photos dunno why.

Monorail back just talked rubbish also.
Then we wait arnd Vivo City quite long, deciding where to go eat.
Saw 2 dogs in a trolley so cute.
Then Ke$ha asked why Darren Daniel Fadzli keep keeping to themselves one.
After that ask wan Banquet, Pizza Hut or dunno what.
Fadzli Darren Daniel cheapskate wanted Banquet lol.
But once in awhile spend mah, so I wanted Pizza Hut.
The rest of the class wanted Pizza Hut in the end.
So suggested go back Tampines there since most ppl live arnd there.

Took MRT back to Tampines that time, sat with Ke$ha.
Talked about how we hated Poly! Then some Gaga and Jesus stuff!
Ke$ha don't like poly too. She has friends (unlike me) but she don't like lifestyle.
I erything also dun like...
Then found out Elena joining us later.
I rmbed Marshall havent know yet and just nice I saw his sms.
So told him eating at Pizza Hut tampines.
He was at the highway around Bedok. Thankfully not across other side of SG.

Went TM, booked Pizza Hut for 20 ppl. Must wait awhile.
So we went to the Open Plaza a short while. Sat down I tried using my Macbook.
But very fast got space le so went Pizza Hut. I ordered Curry Zalza (NICE!!!!)
Sat with Marshall Zhenqi Natasha. Very fun talking too.
Somehow, Marshall's order came, but no one heard so nobody entertained the waiter.
Then Marshall had to ask for it again, they alr served his to someone else.
So his cooked again... Then I joked about Zhenqi coz she quite violent one.
Say that Zhenqi will punch the ppl for their service and the taxes.
Natasha ordered Cheezy Meatballs. Looks so freaking delicious.
But I tahaned din order. I did steal a lil bit of the cheese from Natasha lol.
I noticed ah, Prestela eat super slow and careful! 1 strand by 1 strand, many bites.
During dinner, I saw Jennifer playing iphone game, like hangman
It was "Hanging with Friends". Turned out quite fun!
I think I saw Paul, Shirley, Alicia, Zhenqi, Darren, Daniel playing too.

After dinner stood outside Pizza Hut
Wei Heng stole my Macbook from me and keep running round pillars and ppl
Then i can't catch hold of my laptop! he bluff Marshall that the laptop is his.
Marshall bambitically believed!
Everyone stand around coz they playing Hanging with Friends...
Later Alicia told me got Wifi wireless sg can connect so I dl-ed the game!
Alot ppl got Apple product (ipod touch/iphone) so can play together.
Wei Heng don't have so he couldnt get the app.
We all watched Daniel play with Paul first, quite fun.
Wei Heng return my laptop after holding it so long coz heavy haha.
Then Marshall realise mine i think.

Ke$ha suggested go get high at Arcade so she went off there with a few first.
Later we all, while playing the iphone game, went up join them.
Watched briefly dunno who playing the puck game.
Then Pres and Jenn played some FPS game.
After that dunno what to do, Ke$ha suggest wanna catch late movie.
Me Wei Heng Natasha Marshall Joy wanted.
Everyone else stood around discusssing after went off already coz no $$.
I checked my MacBook for Cathay (Downtown East) the timings.
Wanted to watch Green lantern or X-men first class or Pirates Carribean.
In the end want green lantern in TM coz majority live in Tampines.
At first Ke$ha was going to watch with us.
Later, Marshall Joy and Natasha went down get bubble tea.
Me and Wei Heng went to queue for tickets.
The normal Green Lantern only got front 2 row left.
So me and Wei Heng din buy and go call Marshall through Wei Heng phone.
I dunno why I called him, but can't hear a thing.

In the end decided watch Green Lantern in 3D lor. At 10.30pm.
The tix was $11. So ex. Luckily everyone agreed still watching.
So me and Wei Heng went back buy tix. Bought 6 tickets.
(Coz I still thought Ke$ha was watching with us, but went to send the rest home)
Then marshall joy natasha came back, found out ke$ha not watching with us.
All of us took turns talk to Ke$ha convince her come back watch!
Coz her movie ticket bought already with us, but she din believe!
In the end managed coax her back... Oh we got 2 enter-and-win thingy
From buy movie tix. Then Wei Heng and Natasha tried their luck win sth.
Got 3 random options. 1st time, Wei Heng picked left, won discount on petrol..
The middle option was win Xbox 360!!!
2nd time, Natasha picked right, won $30 voucher at Diva (dun even wth is that)
Middle Option is 3-days at dunno which country!!!
Like all the best prizes in the middle option.
But I think ah, they made it that way, 99% of the time you choose,
You get rubbish prize, then 1 of the other options u din choose,
they make it very attractive prize, so make u feel bad and wanna buy again to try.

Ke$ha bought cheezy Pasta and a drink in.
The pasta smelled so delicious in the cinema lor!
I sat in between Marshall and Wei Heng front seats
While Ke$ha Joy Natasha behind us.
The movie was nice, the effects so good. And the big villain damn gross looking.
Marshall say this is the Katy Perry E.T., she should act in it too!
Oh yah, one of the commercials, somehow saw Katy Perry in it.
Wei Heng said the aliens R his classmates/mom etc lol.
And the 3D not as fantastic as the Shrek 4D Adventure popups.
Ok lah since Shrek one is 4D, and this is 1D less...
But the 3D-vision specs seriously very irritating.
I dun like how it leans on the Edge of Glory, I mean the Edge of the nose.
Then make the edge of nose there very uncomfortable.
Throughout the movie I on and off took off the glasses.
So funny, Ke$ha complain the green lantern (actor Ryan Reynolds) not hot!

The movie was good still.
Then Wei Heng Natasha Joy Ke$ha shared a cab home coz no more MRT/bus.
I ate Macdonalds with Marshall.
I bought Double Quarter Pounder meal....
So late (I think it was 12+am) and I bought such a heavy meal!
Coz I gian for it mah, long time never eat my fav quarter pounder
I love the meat! CARNIVOROUS!
Then chat a lil bit then went home.

The whole day out. from 10am to 1am (15 hours!)
Every single event, was so fun so memorable and I love the day!
I will cherish it... Next time, as we progress to further Tertiary Education,
NS, University and eventually the working world,
We may not be able to have fun like this anymore...
So, I wanna say 16 June 2011 - BEST DAY EVAR.
I love my class 4E1'10. (2E1'08 also lah)
Secondary School is the best!!!!

As one age, problems escalates

2011-05-17T03:04:00.005+08:00

It's been 2 months already I think since I went SP.
Not coping well steel. I'm such a failure in making friends...
Also, I have such negligible confidence and all that.
This course I'm in, I'm sure gonna suffer heavily.
Because it sure doez require a lot of courage, creativity, confidence etc.

So I think my GPA is gonna Floptina.
So sad! Also, I feel like a wandering earthbound soul.
I've lost all aspirations in life already!
There's nothing I wanna do before I die at all...
No jobs I long for, no hopes...

I'll just continue living as a soul-dead vessel,
await for 2012 to truly happen, which I guess most likely will not,
So I'll instead await for the day I vanish.

Life is exceptionally depressing for me.
But on the lighter note, what keeps me "going"...
Is Lady Gaga, her music and the way she connects with us Little Monsters,
Make me feel there's a tiny 0.000001% glimpse of worthiness to live.
I don't care if I'm criticised, ridiculed, mocked for liking Mama Monster.
Try living in my shoes.

Anw its 3.10am. Thank Lord/God that got Vesak Day public holiday!
But I really dislike sleeping this exaggeratedly late, coz I don't want no bad habit.

It's less than an hour to the release of Mama Monster's HAIR (song).
I wanna camp awake for it! But then it'll most likely only release on US/UK iTunes.
So SG tak boleh get to buy. So I have to wait a few hours or so for VEVO Youtube.

Saw this quote on twitter, and agree!
= If life gives you lemons, just squeeze them into your eyes anyway because life sucks in reality.

So, I'm as free as my hair.

Polytechnic Life - Worst ever

2011-04-28T20:43:00.005+08:00

Hi been so long since I blogged.
I think it's already been over a month??
Anw I really have to get alot off my chest! Stress!

Would one rather change one's ways to gain companionship, or would one remain true to oneself?

This is my "sloganic" question of this year 2011.

K from here on I will say wadever I wanna say! I dont give a fuhh if it affects any part of me lifezz.

This year just entered Singapore Polytechnic.
I got into the DMAT course which is "Diploma in Music & Audio Technology"
I first put that course as my FIRST CHOICE.
It wasn't a rash or random decision.
I carefully considered how much I loved music, creating and all,
asked for family advice. Most replies were to follow passion.
So, my passion is totally in music.
I put DMAT as 1st choice, despite how exaggeratedly far the school is from home,
no matter how I don't have a single friend in the same course as me.
Because I wanted to follow my passion.

Now, I 100% realistically regret my decision.
I trudged on the wrong footpath of my life.
How I'm feeling currently is like I'm in a pitch black limbo of despair, regret, pain etc.
I've up to now, been feeling like dropping out of the course.
But, if I do so? What else can I do? Which course? Nothing else seems interesting to me.

I first entered the course with utmost love & passion for music & any relations.
But after going through a tiny phase of the course, now all of that are crushed & destroyed...

I'm actually coping well with all the modules for my course, leaving maths as one of the toughest but I can still pick it up at a slow pace.
But what struck me to hate the course, is the lifestyle there...

My classmates (19 of them to be exact) are actually really great people.
They are all multitalented, cheerful, overenthusiastic & fun.
Only thing is, they are of those qualities only to one another (19 of em tgt)
For bad reasons, I sort of am unintentionally excluded.
Really, I don't think they are the problem at all.
I think the fact is that I'm the problem...
I can't seem to get along well with them.

They may not see it, but on an overview it's noticeable.
They can all talk, joke, chat, communicate very well with one another.
Really enthusiastic to one another too!
But I'm not like that at all, so I'm not at all an inch close in to them in bond terms.

I'm such a extremely quiet person, very quiet. (And it fking sux)
I really can't stand this quality of me... I wanna die cos of it.
It's because of my personality, I can't fit in with my Poly classmates.
I really wanna die! Better yet, why won't I just cease from existence?
I hate my personality.

It's really hard for me to make the 1st move of talking, or befriending new people.
Now a lot of people will prompt me that it's easy, just try, can do it. etc
But truly, it's one of the most challenging and difficult task in my entire life.
It's indescribable.. I'll can only try my best to express what it means 50%.
It's like, I really really wanna talk and make the first move and all.
But deep within my heart and subconciousness, my entire soul & body just wont bother working to go and approach the new ppl/person to talk to and friend.
I feel so uneasy, not usual uneasiness, the feeling feels beyond human nature..

Sound to me like I have a fatal disease or sth.
But I'm am very devastated of my life.
To be directly honest, my complaining here may seem like I'm a sore, a bad asshole
coz there R others worse of then me.
My answer, is that I wish that those that R far off worse in life then me can take over my life!!! And I cease to existence! I dont wanna exist or live at all!!

I think this is called introvert??
Though eryone says introvert is wont talk at all.
For me, I do talk, but only if ppl talk to me first.
Other than that, I will never approach ppl at all, unless its super super urgent that I need to ask/talk abt something.
But on normal basis, I don't talk at all.
So, thats why I feel arent I an introvert???

Many times I really try to change!
I asked my friends for advice, family, even search online.
I keep trying my best to try and try.
At the very most, I will improve 0.01%, after that I unconciously revert back to old self.

I seriously wanna change, but there seem to be a huge obstacle that I cant change.

Another note though,
I really don't mind being alone, not talking for 48hours or more somthing lidat.
But what it worries me alot if I dont talk to ppl, have good friends, normal friends,
because I'm worried that it will negatively affect my life and cause me to suffer,
be it academically, spiritually, emotionally. etc.

Now, it sounds pretty longwinded and crazy but, I am hurt emotionally...
Because despite me not minding being alone, I still am very worried being alone,
will affect my life negatively destroying it somehow, so I feel that maybe it's a MUST after all to have friends. So now with my personality, it seems I will never ever make new friends, I feel so infected, so hurt.

Sounds selfish to me though...
But then I am a good hearted person I believe and I'm not boasting.
I will actually treat my friends very nice, even if they backstab me somewhat.
I am very forgiving too... which is also kinda bad I guess...

Thankfully what actually keeps me going at 1% of my life,
I have my secondary school friends!
I don't have a lot of secondary school friends,
but at least the few R nice ppl that I love.
They will forever be in my heart.
(I'm not talking abt courtship love ah!)

But back to Polytechnic..........
I hate it. I can't fit in, I can't make friends, I feel so excluded.
I stick out like a thorn (as in all of em bondedly noisy in a good way; me very quiet)

My internet life also dropped down already.
All because of poly life.
Because my class created a Facebook Group.
Then ALL of them post there non-stop, socialising and having fun time with one another. While, I'm the only one who NEVER POSTED THERE BEFORE since day 1.
It's the same problem, subconciously a ruling force compels me from posting make first move blah blah blah balrhm akethnkgdjh.

This dampens my dying spirit more...
Please Jesus, I love you, and I know you love me as equal as everyone else.
Oh yes, another person I can turn to is Jesus. He loves me/everyone unconditionally.
But still, if only Jesus could take my life away painlessly and I live in his eternal kingdom without feeling anguished and sad.

I've also tried positive reinforcement attitude..failed as usual.
I keep telling myself, it will get better, my life will improve.
But so far, no improvement. I shld go eat Cyanide.

Why wasnt I born like everyone one else? :(
I don't like being "special" (note the "")
I wanna be a common normal person! A common boy.
Listen to rock/metal music.
Love/Play Sports.
Very talkative and loud.
Sociable.

But instead I'm opposite of all those.
No matter how ppl say personal preferences will not affect friendship,
it really does affect, at a certain percentage.
It's not a sole factor of affecting it, but it does affect.
So... I'm as good as a carcass.

Bottom line, I registered for the course with :
- Eagerness
- Passionate of Music
- Strong Will
- Dream of being songwriter/performer

After going through less than a month of the course, I'm :
- Devastated
- Very little passion for Music, developed a hate for it too.
- Weak & Hurt
- No more dreams; don't want to be songwriter/performer anymore.

So, = lost in life without a purpose.

I feel like going to SP feels like I'm first time going to American High School.
There's like a legacy, that you must do all sorts of stuff just to fit in,
and you'd want to fit in coz it will help with ur life while in school.
I even told myself, travelling for 1h30min back & forth respectively, is no prob.
Because back den I was keen on going for my passion course.
But now, I hate every aspect... suffer travelling too.

One of my greatest hopes I've pinned my life to,
that the Mayan's predictions of 21st December 2012, the worldscale massive death,
will be entirely true, and arrive. Sooner would be better.
Then let eryone who wanna survive, survive.
Let ppl like me, who dont get the good out of the world, and dont even deserve the Earth world, perish!

Now awaiting : 21st December 2012.
Counting : 1 year, 7 months, and approx. 20days

Music copyrights

2011-03-09T01:44:00.002+08:00

Ok I'm just gonna talk abt the music nowadays
I dont enjoy Kpop because I dont understand the lyrics
And also I realise quite a no. of Kpop artists not innovative enough
End up replicating certain existing tracks by other artists
Especially from American Pop and British Pop and Chinese Pop
I dont hate them lah but I juz dislike copy
Also I got notice most of the popular Kpop songs,
All the hooks use English.

So far, I nvr heard a top korean songs with korean hooks...
So meaning they cant do w/o English, but can do w/o their home lang - Korean?
(Good thing is means Eng = superior :D )
I only like the old Korean artists who use pure Korean
& no nid rely on English to boost popularity. Those R true talents!

Anw, the nowadays Kpop oso like love to name their songs with english ones.
K alright to name but just saying only..

Anw IT Fair is coming soon!!!
I must get a 1Terabyte hardrive!
Prob is I dun really know how to go to the IT Fair,
Hopefully I can find my way there!

During JC's March Hols,
Going to Universal Studio with Debbie Celine Marshall!!
Cant wait! Im so stoked for it! I love USS!!
The rides R simply orgasmic!
Hope to save up $$ in my pocket fast

Mother side- cousin wedding dinner

2011-01-31T00:38:00.000+08:00

Attended my Mother's side cousin's wedding today.
It was really enjoyable! They look really happy together
The dinner was splendid too haha.
I heard some familiar music played too.
Although my siblings & I kena seated @ different tables from my mother.
But still it was alright lah.
Then there was a Yamaha piano outside the ballroom!
I played a few short songs for my mum + other relatives!
Nice night out but very sleepy slept @ 4am!

Tmr (today) or wadever monday confusing lah since 12+am now
Anw got reunion dinner with family
Sadly not gonna have steamboat cos my grandma find it messy
I like having steamboat for reunion dinner...
But still can lah got nice food enough!

I resumed piano lessons after 1 year!
I am super rusty @ Classical area, but my Pop area very strong lol
Practice too much pop song during O's le!
But I've been practicing classical now since i restarted piano
So I can play one exam piece quite well already.
I love music a lot!
I got into SP Poly in "Music & Audio Technology"
I hope I can do very well in it and achieve ultimate success!!
I wanna be like that famous producer David Guetta! (As amalina calls me lolz)
But heard that the course i going into kinda risky may not get good job?
But my uncle encourage me go for wad i like so i go lor
I hope one day can be even more successful than David Guetta!
I wanna be a good producer!

I better pray that I will not laze around during my course and all!

CNY soon too! More money in my Pocket! $_$
I wanna get a 1 Terabyte (1000GB) hardrive!
I lack of space alr with my 300GB hardrive...
Also I prolly wanna get a guitar i wanna learn alot of instruments.
Also wanna get proper contact lenses.
The ones i wore @ prom was lousy cheap shits so hard put on!
Wanna make habit to wear contact lenses cos my eye so puny alr

Can't wait for CNY! gong xi fa cai!

1st post of the year 2011

2011-01-03T21:07:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated New Year for 2 days ago...

Its 2011 today! Which means only 1 more year left to 2012 where everyone dies!

Lol just kidding, but if that day is true, i don't care just die lor. But if its not true even better.

Anw, before 2011 a lot has happened in 2010.

I have gotten Christmas presents for quite a number of ppl!

And their not cheapskate shit too... I hope.

No chance to pass to them Christmas presents coz no chance to meet up.

I guess I'm gonna have to give it out on O Level Results Day..

But so weird leh if I give out late Christmas presents on result day

Some ppl exclaim with joy, others crying sadly, den i present them presents...

But in my tinking, the ppl crying if i give present shld be a like a cheer-up present oso bah.

I hope everyone who deserves good stuff achieves satisfactory results!

I have failed to learn a lot of songs on piano T_T

Half is i lazy, other half is im not so talented.

I wish I was more talented, have perfect pitch, rhythming and all.

But nvm I must accept my current self coz I'm Born This Way.

And on Christmas Day 2010, I became a Christian!

Such an appropriate day coz Christmas = Jesus born.

At first I didn't plan to be Christian at all, maybe until I'm full adult

Coz I feel I will not be committed to it, as I'm young and less disciplined

Super lazy and rebellious.

But somehow I dunno why I "felt" like I have to go up and all.

And I became Christian in front of a huge crowd which is extremely scary.

Anw now I've got Jesus on my neckalace-ace- acezzzzzzz

1 reason become Christian is that I believe in Jesus and especially his teachings.

He teaches everyone to LOVE & UNDERSTAND. So I hope its always that way.

I joined my sister's cell group. But to be honest, I'm not comfortable being in one.

All along I like being alone, and only sometimes with a few frens.

Dats why I don't wanna be in a cell group...

Most ppl must have company, but I like being alone, why? coz i'm Born This Way!

(I say Born This Way so much cos thats Gaga's upcoming album lol)

Also, I feel that I a lil bit regret being Christian.

Not that I don't like it, coz in the end, im not so committed to it...

I feel bad not being committed, but cos im so forgetful + lazy.

Dats why I regret joining so soon, I feel its best for me join when im older...

But I cant back out alr ><>

Adding on, Olevel results day is 10 January!

Alot ppl been asking me whether i going JC or Poly.

But I look @ it as depend on my results,

if good enuf go Meridian JC or Tampines JC, I will go.

If not good enuff, I will go Poly.

Anw ppl going Poly is cos they know what they wanna do in life.

And I alr know what I love and wanna do in life.

Although the thign i wanna do, is extremely hard to be succesful

for an Asian and living in Singapore's society.

Singapore to survive, more like u CANNOT live ur dreams...

U must choose a study path more radical, to lead u to a good job secure ur future.

Tho the good job will not be wad I like doing T_T

If only Im not born somewhere where music is easier to get into!

Omg so long i post bye!

Realization

2010-12-22T20:41:00.003+08:00

(Blinded - all I can see is the darkness in the bright world I'm in)

I have come to realize some stuff
And I do not enjoy them.
I still have hope someday it will be alright.
I will not experience such bad stuff ever anymore.
Please, just let everything be okay, all the problems faced not only myself,
But everyone, resolve.

Same old wish as usual need not be stated

Back to December

2010-12-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

2E1'08 Class Chalet-BBQ from 8 Dec to 10 Dec (Wed ~ Fri)

Enjoyed myself a lot!
Don't think I need to talk about what happened bah
Keep it held in my memories for life is good enuff
Although, I still feel that this year's wasn't as splendid as last year's
I still enjoyed 2009 chalet better than this years
But still this year is still fantastic lah.

So far during this holiday, especially December
I have been trying to stay happy and enjoy as much as I can
Right before "The Day"
Got an iPod Touch from my stepmom. Thank you very much Mimi!!!
I love it so much I keep playing a lot of apps and games too.
Been playing dotA on and off too.
Hope to be able to go out more often... But very hard coz
I cannot organise these stuff as I am.. introvertic...
But I hope miraculously can get to go out more!

So this December was still enjoyable too.
Oh yeah, Christmas is coming soon oso!
I've shopped 4 some presents, havent finish yet.
Really hard to tink of wad to get for the ppl i wanna get for.
Of cos I expect nothing in return when i give Christmas presents.
I just hope they will like the presents!

Im contented with this December, seems least stressful
Been a long time since I never felt any stress!
I will always go Back To December for happiness...
Love Taylor Swift for composing "Back to December" too.
The song is really "touching" and also dedicated to her ex, Taylor Lautner.

Looking forward >>>>>>
(but not to January of cos lol)

Holidays...

2010-12-02T15:36:00.003+08:00

Been long time since I posted
Coz so far been having fun playing games and all.

Here to emo again!
I just realised already. I'm not so stupid after all.
Nor am I smart tho. I'm just average.
But I will not go very far in life. Probably won't get a good job.
Because I'm an Introvert.
It sucks being an introvert not wanting to communicate and all.
If only I could be extrovert.

Tho songs nowadays have messages of being yourself is the best.
Ke$ha's We R Who We R already is abt being who you are.
Pink's Raise Your Glass lyric "So raise your glass if you are wrong, in all the right ways also portraying that no matter how wrong you appear to be, its still right coz u are yourself.
Gaga's upcoming album will totally be on being yourself too with it called "Born This Way".

But observing, being urself is best?
But if I remain introvert wont i not go far in life T_T
And another e.g. If some1 is extra fat, he/she remain extra fat is not good wad.
So I dun understand anything at all!
Hope to vanish once again! And leave Earth a torturous place.

Anw, the grad nite was very fun, the food not so good to me tho.
I 50% regret dressing wad i did and 50% did not.
But still it was fun overall.
I didnt win best dress but I dont give a fuhh becos I already know Im not the best.
Still the grad nite was fun took alot of photos!

Waiting 4 the Day to arrive!!

I don't give a fuhh about counting

2010-09-28T17:03:00.004+08:00

No matter how much I try to study,

I never improve and i give up already,

Fate never let me sow what I reap,

May I not wake up from my sleep.

27 days left...

2010-09-27T01:23:00.002+08:00

Ok 27 days left to the start of 3 weeks of ability testing....

Today did the chem tys 2008 O level thingy.

I did not so good i think got B4 overall when I added up...

I want A2 or A1!!!

Anw did some A Maths tys, but i don't think i can finish doing everything by 27days!
+ got many other subjects to learn!! I really wan my A Maths get A1!!
I pray to God please let me slowly improve until O Levels that time,

Let me be able to get raw score for L1B5 12! I wan to score this lah!

Survived 2 weeks of mock exams! Mr Bala is half right,

I am used to having exam exam all the time, not so worked up to know dat next day have exam.

But the wrong part, I am not used to doing so badly everyday

for every single mock exam paper.... I dunno why i cant do it

I put in alot of effort to study ever than b4

No improvements.

Please God, I wanna improve extremely badly,

Let me improve my

English comprehension

AMaths whole thing

Emaths whole thing

All 3 Sciences everything!
Social Studies SBQ,

Geog memory and application.

I need alot of improvements! pls help me....

And funny thing abt "life" ppl say must identify your mistakes,

once identified, try to learn and improve.

I know all my mistakes, but i somehow unable to learn or improve.

Must be the stupid Brain Disease I have...

Still can't find the name for it on Google or Wiki...

I need strength... I Look To You..

29 or 30 Days Left

2010-09-25T01:01:00.003+08:00

AMATHS TODAY MOCK PAPER.

STUDIED TO THE CORE FOR IT THE DAY BEFORE.

And then left 1 whole question and 4 parts questions empty.

Not just no time, I couldn't do it. Really dunno.

Until now I still cannot answer??! O levels coming soon...

Once again, I don't shittily understand!
I studied hard for it.... Why?? Why still cannot do?"????

Everything is WHY!

I think I have absolutely no affinity to do AMaths then...

But then, I got an A1 before leh... does that mean otherwise??

I can't do anything!! This week I tried be more determined,

more hardworking and strong.

but after doing that amaths paper, i can feel its useless.

Anw, the mock papers are VERY easy (to alot of ppl)

But to Donkeyed people like me, found it excruciatingly difficult.

All I ever wanted is to do well in studies...

So that I can live life happily and enjoyable...

Able to afford anything I need and want...

Able to support my father, mother, stepmother...

Able to lend or even give money to friends who may need it...

Able to pay for courses I like and all...

But Now loook @ my studiess,,
In future sure the other way roudn already...

Cant get anything i want....

Suck money out of my father, mother, stepmother....

Borrow from friends often and nvr pay back...

Cannot do anything in life....

Nvm lah, i can stop this from happening if i tak boleh do well in studies,

i will kill myself, i dont like being a burden or parasite to others.

Prelim is over. O Levels closer.

2010-09-17T21:57:00.003+08:00

Prelims over the results were actually ok.

Not so good lah. Actually I will be satisfied with it but the L1B5 cant get me to the sch i wan.

My Eng is seriously not good already. Paper 2 got 26/50...

Last year, I always get 30+/50. This year i always get 20~28/50 only..

Which mean my English went down...
My compo i will say is ok lah, i quite ok with the marks

But duno why miss idhzana said moderate marks...

guess she expect more from me.. but i just couldnt do it...

All my 3 sciences went down even more!
Why??? I studied alot leh!! And must all 3 of them drop...

Phy got B4 (dropped 2 grades, but i feel ok coz *cough*

Bio I somehow forgot whats it. If not wrong is B3 ~ C5. Dunno why cant rmb wad i score

Chem.... I dropped from B3 to C6.... So scary T_T

Then even Miss Koh advised me to drop chem on that day...

Now i feel so stupidly useless..

All drop drop drop i shld drop dead oso lah

A Maths was so difficult, Mdm Low set so hard.

Got B4 its amazing i got that for hard paper.

But I'm happy with my SSG and EMaths results!
Tho I'm scared SSG the SBQ, i did very badly for it.

Luckily did very well for SEQ!
But all in all i still sucked.

If I'm not wrong I counted I got 17 for L1B5.

Icant go to the JC I want... need 12....

I have extremely low IQ i guess..

Anw, I felt the prelim is not harder or close to harder than O levels lor.

Everyone keeps blabbering abt "prelim is harder than O level"
But this time, i dont think so... Even though yah i score so bad.

Anw even if it is harder, than wtf is wrong with ppl?!

How can ppl still score like so many many many A1s? High ones too!
That is wad i dun understand with this freaking world.

So many smart ppl born... All can A1 everything.

Why dont ppl like me dont born out at all.

I really tried my best leh... I studied harder than I ever did b4.

This is wad I get... 17 this tells me that im at my limit.

I feel like crying already. I dont fit to be in this world..

I am absolutely positive I'm suffering from some sort of Brain Disease

Where my brain is slowly dying off, small parts of my brain dying day by day.

Or week by week? year by year?

Need to google and find out what im suffering from.

PROOF :
Kindergarten - I could do Primary 3 or 4 work easily. Scored well. Never study much.

Primary 1~2 - English Maths Chinese 97 99 100 study less.

Primary 3~5 - At first 80+ marks, then dropped to 70+. studied a lil more.

Primary 6 - C-range for 3 subjects all the time. (studied more than pri 3~5) *PSLE : 220*
Sec 1 - 5 A1s, No Cs. (studied less)

Sec 2 - 6 A1s, maybe 1 or 2 Cs. (studied more)

Sec 3 - 2 or 3 A1s. F9 before. Some Cs. (studied more than sec 1 and 2)
Sec 4 & still ongoing - 1 or No A1s. Lots of Cs. Some Bs. (studied & studying the MOST MOST now)

So you see?

As I grow older, my results get worse, even tho as I grow older I put in more effort.

I am 100% sure I have a disease, mental illness. physical illness. I dunno.

Then if I continue by predicting the unavoidable trend...

JC/Poly/ITE - No As or Bs.

Uni (If i ever get qualified) - Fails.

Go to work - cannot speak or write

Older abit - End up in hospital a Vegetable. for life

So better, Grim Reaper! Pls come end my misery... i suffering from illness leh?

Look, if u see an animal in great pain, bleeding profusely, cannot cure.

You'd wanna end the animal life tos top it from suffering right?

So help me too pls. Lord.

Fucking Lazy

2010-09-08T16:14:00.003+08:00

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Wasted my holiday playing.

I just cant control myself, this shows how lousy I am.

I wanna study!! But i keep playing lah!
Can predict already that my O level will be really bad.

If only somehow I can study every single day, for extremely long hours and absorb..

Won't someone, something, help me be able to study very well T_T

I'm so freakin lazy, laziest shit onearth

O Level Countdown

2010-09-01T00:52:00.002+08:00

O levels coming! Less than 2 mnths left liao!
Havent prepare at all! Now heard for coming Term 4,

Every week have mock exam... No more free holiday time stay home study.

I wan dat lor.. i prefer study at home.

But now even worse they take away the holiday + add mock exam 24/7.

Gud thing mock exam help train us, but very tiring...

I hope I can quickly start studying, im sure everyone around me long ago started already..

Anyway today is 1st September, real Teachers' Day.

Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers around the world!
Thanks to all my teachers a lil of my stupidity vanished
W/o their hard work i cannot do anything!

Made 13 teachers day cards the day before, took 2h+

Each card I wrote an acrostic poem of the teacher's name,

and wrote a personal cher's day message.

Usually I'll buy gifts one, but i feel dis year try make cards only bah.

Also, I think making cards own effort, more appreciable.

Ms Rafidah agreed with me! When i gave her my card she said same thing!

Glad almost everyone liked the lame cards i made...

Altho @ first ONE not much appreciate it, at first only lah.

But in the end appreciate already ( i think...)

Hope to start a "new life" soon..

Nothing to say already

2010-08-25T14:28:00.001+08:00

Nothing to say...
A Maths today, I am dead, confirm will be an F9~D7.

From today onwards, I am dead. This body is an empty vessel.

My soul has moved on. Take me as the living dead.

For I am really hungry for brains, as I don't have any.

Why I'm born this way?! Life is exceedingly unfair...

Me being born with nothing...

I'm not smart, not strong, not talented, not useful, not streetwise, not profound, not sharp, not everything.

I'd rather just cease from existence, and a poor child living in an LDC can become me.

Rather let that poor child suffering in rural LDCs take my place

and I am erased from existence.

I dont wanna die... I just wanna be... gone

Whatever I do/touch/attempt is shit...

I'll just live on (as a zombie) and pray one day I'll vanish....

Prelim sux... O level sure a complete bust T_T

Preliminary Examinations

2010-08-22T12:59:00.001+08:00

12 days since last blogpost!
In the middle of the Preliminary Examinations now.
Cleared English Paper 1, Chemistry Paper 2, SS & Geog.

Im scared for bio tomorrow!
And Im even more scared for Physics coz I sux in it.

But weird thing everyday I keep feeling so relaxed.

Don wanna study at all. Thats why so stress...

Stress that I dont feel like studying and feel like its ok not to study lidat.

O lvl in 2mnths or less... When can I start studying....

Anw, O Level Mother Tongue I got C6!
Not good grade lor, but I think its ok for me coz normally I fail.

Then I dropped Chinese le, dowan take the 2nd one.

I waste time if I take the 2nd one, coz the most I will go up to C5 or B4?

Then I wont be using those in L1R5 I guess...

Now have more time during mother tongue periods.

I hope I WILL utilise the time well....

I'm dying I wish I die in my sleep or something.

I cant study, I dowan study, actually I wan lah, but my body and conscience dowan.

I Don't think i can do well or average for o lvls at all already.

Need body to start agreeing with me and study!!
Everyone around me is already good, i need to keep up!

Prelim will tell how uncapable, not-so-smart, i am then...

Awaits the results of PRELIM

Dreams are slowly drifting apart from me

2010-08-10T00:19:00.005+08:00

Where am I...

I think I give up on my dreams already.

"I want to be a pianist/performer or anything to do with music that I love."

I felt this when I was young.
But now that dream is shattered... all gone. I give up.

I realised after watching on Youtube and other stuff.

How many people can play very well, much better than I.

What's more, they have so many supporters, views, fans and dunno what.

Then me, I only have... 4 or 5 likes? But anw its ok, coz I only post on facebook, frens can see only.

But still, I don't have to post my piano videos on Youtube anw, the songs can find by other talented ppl play liao.

I'll maybe get negative comments, and bring my self-esteem down to the climax.

But I already have no more self-esteem.

I really try hard everyday, to encourage myself be proud of myself, or don't look down.

I got tell myself CAN but now I have to say CANNOT.

I see a lot of people far more talented than me, a lot. Not just millions.

Then what chance have I to get my dreams? So, I guess I will never ever get to fulfil my interest.

I have to wake up! And throw that rubbish dream away!

Anw, I decided to go to JC, I won't give a shXX about music anymore.

I'll try my best to concentrate on my studies, in meantime think of a new dream possible to achieve.

For piano, i'll just play when i'm bored by myself. Maybe can sell away when older.. return my parents money! they need money anw

anw over already, Happy National Day (yesterday!) RED AND WHITE! 1 CRESCENT! 5 STARS!

I tink Singapore 45 years old already?

I din watch NDP very boring to me lor.

I haven't been studying, can't control myself from playing/slacking/watch shows.

I need to think of a life-threatening plan to force me to study, hope can think up something.

Funny thing is, prelim is coming Very soon, i tink 1 week left only.

Yet I'm so calm! I don't bother studying! The only time I "study" is do h/w!

I definitely know doing h/w isnt enuff to help, but I just cant seem to do extra.

This is when I realise, Everything I've ever tried, I cant do it.

Why?! I hate my parents, only for one reason... for giving birth to me.

They shld've aborted me or get miscarriage!!

Anw, I heard only, but not so sure its true.

When my mother was pregnant with me, my grandmother said dowan.

She said got 2 children (my elder sis and bro) Enuff already.

Wans my mom go for abortion.
But my mother rebel, she die die wanna keep me.

So, yah, I born out... If only my mother listened to my grandmother!
Go for abortion! 2 children enuff!
Anw, I oso feel left out with my sis & bro.

I feel abnormal all the time.

They talk to each other so well, I cant. I cant eventtry.

Then alot of ppl, now including they 2, into listening Korean music.

I'm not into it... I just dislike listening to korean music.

But I will say, their songs not bad, and they can sing.

Still, I'm abnormal.

If only I wasnt born, and I shld stop saying If only.

If only If only. !!!
I'm waiting for my best friend, Death to come to me.

I will embrace him/her/it with open arms happily!
(But exception that its not painful)

Anw as Ms Ihdzana told me, I cant call myself unintelligent or something.

So i wont say it.

Thats why i must say, if only i wasnt born....

4 Tests tomorrow

2010-08-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

4 Tests tomorrow... die le...

Bad Night

2010-08-02T23:01:00.001+08:00

Aah bad day today..

First of Ms Idzhana read my previous post.

Sorry Ms Idzhana if made you sad! (If u read tis post haha)
Anw, cleared things up with her after school..

Lil misunderstanding i guess? still im in de wrong!

Thank you for thinking I can do it, go jc and everything.

I'll try build up self-esteem if i can hopefully...

Ok I decided already, I will aim for Tampines JC!

No more Poly not becos they are bad, becos i wanna go jc only.

But if i kena poly.. its still ok i will choose a course i prefer.

more bad stuff,

got bio test tmr, dam tired today, study latelate like 6+pm.

Fail alr lah! Anw my bio's been quite bad.

Den so tired wanna sleep early today @ 10pm.

Den cant find my handphone! I panic coz I tot I left somewhere

But I rmb I brought it home last time i use it was in the shower (listen music while bathe haha)

Searched everywhere for it...

Under piano, on computer area, under beds, sofa, dog's fur rug, cousin toy box

I even search inside the microwave oven! and the fridge..

Den i woke grandma up ask her, felt so bad waking her up...

But den after awhile i rmb my bro and I have same handphone.

So called him and he say he took my phone!
Coz he din realise and oso 4got his own phone in his bag..

Wasted nearly 1 h searching for it...

Now 11+ liao!!!!!
Not enuff slp! Die already! I will die in my slp!

I am an antagonist, I don't need a... stalker!

2010-07-29T23:58:00.006+08:00

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Busy Week

2010-07-20T00:04:00.001+08:00

Very busy this week!!

As usual (Which i dun like as usual too),

There are ALOT of tests coming up.

And then, tmr there's Chinese O LEVEL Listening Comprehension....

I am Fking scared, coz Im the lowest in class for Chinese LC itself...

I put in effort to listen one, but i cant understand...

Pray everyone and God please do help me do well for tomorrow. >>>>

Tmr not only Chinese LC O Level,

Also got Julie's Chem Test on Electrolysis + Metals.

I suck~eth @ Electrolysis... So difficultest.

I hope the test wont be so hard.

Then Wed got O LEVEL Bio SPA Skill 3!
I havent revise the Format or anything lidat!
It's on PLANT NUTRITION (So dam boring)

Again, please lemme do well in it!!!!!!!!!
My last Bio SPA was completely failed coz of wrong graph drawn and readings...

Worstest day of all.... Thursday.....

Theres Chem Test on Everything.....

Theres Phy Test on Thermal Properties... (4Get everyting liao)
Theres A Maths Test on abt 7 chapts... (I've always sucked in Amaths ALOT)
C'mon why isnt there at least a slightest hope for me?...

I wanna do well all the time... I try many different methods..

Dont study, No Good.

Study 1 whole day b4, No Good.

Study in advance, No Good.

Study + Play, No Good.

Study with frens, No Good.

All oso cannot. Den wad's wrong? Am I Die-Die cant do well one?

How can lidat... so unfair.....

Confused abt going JC or Poly too...

Choosing them determines 2 paths I really wan...

MONEY or INTEREST

For Money,

I wanna choose JC, so dat I can easily go University.

And then can get a gud job and earn lots of money, dont suffer nxt time.

For Interest,

I wanna choose Poly?

Coz Poly offer music stuff (My deepest interest)
And also to be successful in music, best complete it Overseas.

Singapore University for music wont bring u far.

And Overseas recognises Poly's Diploma as compared to JC's A Lvl Cert.

(Tho, I "heard only", Tampines JC got some side music course too!)

Ok, here it is! My problem........

If I go JC, I can work hard and get gud job and live life happily

But not as happy coz my job isnt my interest.

If I go Poly, I can work with my interest.

But the thing is, Im scared I go poly and pursue interest,

I may fail and den not have a gud career according to my interest.

Music dam hard to be successful...

Especially everyone around me is so Talented or Prodigy from young.

While Im a stupid kid with -ve talent.

So... JC Poly still dunno till now!!
All the better I die lah! Die already no need choose anymore!!!

Prelim Countdown

2010-07-10T13:28:00.002+08:00

(Death)

OMFG Prelim in 30 days or something lidat!

I'm 99% not ready!
Havent start revising at all.

Everyday bombarded with alot of tests and h/w.

Nxt week oso gt more tests.

Now I have lotsa h/w still havent do...

I need some time to revise and brush up my thousands of weak subjects...

How can school make us have not enuff time'?!
I mean actually dey gave us enuff time to finish h/w and study for test.

But not enuff time to revise or rest.

So its either I choose to revise or rest... and i rest of cos.

Too tired to study everyday...

I am confused wanna go poly or jc....

I really die die wanna go jc, but @ dis rate + my current results, canot go.

So I must standby some courses I may wanna take....

Anw, I practicing piano more already.
trying to learn as many songs as i can (by ear, dam hard..)

This is for sake of my future at least...

If I fail in everyting studying,

At least i still have some skills to busk out @ Tampines MRT or sth...

Den can earn $$ to cont living...

Sick, skipping Chem Diagnostic Test

2010-06-28T22:32:00.003+08:00

(zzzzz... Back to stress-school)

It's back to school today.

And obviously I don't like it.

Today kena change seating arrangement somemore!
Only me and Chong Teng.

The place now noisier... And hard to see the board!

(Chem test chem test... On every single chapter... I suck @ electrolysis)

Anw, tomorrow there's a Chemistry Diagnostic Test!
And wads more Julie tell so late, alot ppl nvr study.

But, im sure everyone can do quite well.

Except me... But the gud thing is...

(Karen sick lol -from mean girls movie)

*cough cough* I can't go out... I'm sick.

I am sick with bad cough, bad flu, sore throat, no energy.

De doctor advise me rest 1 day, and no exercise!
(And today health checkup nurse advise exercise more)
Anw, i'll not go schl tmr, no nid take chem test!
But when go bak schl must take...

Im scared! But I must make sure i recover and study tmr!

(Omg look @ my pile of homework!)

Somemore I havent finish a lot homework still..

I feel so stress more, Prelim is SO NEAR!
Fk 7 weeks only left! I dun tink I can make it.

I've been too playful play alot of games...

And also too lazy to study revise do work...

If only I had motivation to do all these...

If there's hope, please come to me...

Many Homework, still undone

2010-06-23T14:09:00.002+08:00

Aaah I tried my best.

Still got a lot of homework havent finish!

I played too much too i guess...

Anw the Chem paper was so damn difficult.

And I wanna die from A Maths, I only did 4/13 questions!
And de paper 2 i did 2/11 questions!

Dis made me reflect... Will I ever make it to my dream JC?

I mean I only wan go Tampinse JC leh?

Lidat is suppose to be simple. Yet I cant even go....
I tink I'll end up Poly or ITE le..
I must prepare to choose a course I wan.

Anw here is all the homework I'm left :
- Bio Paper 1

- Bio Paper 2

- Phy Paper 1

-Phy Paper 2

- Phy Set 2 Paper 1

- Phy Set 2 Paper 2

- Chem Set 2 Paper 2

- E Maths Paper 1 or 2 (4got)

Total : 8

(And I din count in A Maths!! Its considered not done since so lil)

I feel so terrible lah.

Anyone havent finish as much as me yet? T_T

I dowan be the only one........

(#$*%&(*

Lotsa h/w + Tests after June break

2010-06-14T23:19:00.004+08:00

(Tis is a Pika, so cute! Type of rodent. not hamster or mouse, its Pika.)

Now having JUNE BREAK,

I wont call it holiday coz so short...

Still got sch on 24th June somemore.
Schl gave ALOT ALOT of h/w to do!!!!
Actually Im sure its ok not to do the papers de chers wont scold.

But I will regret not doing cos it will affect my O lvls!!

(Pile of h/w sian....)

Anw, I havent started anything at all...

Am I the only slacker?

I bet our class monsters alr finished 2~3 papers...

I tink we have 13 papers to do? Abt there...

And oso got SS SEQ Re-exam for every1.

Tis means have to memorise alot of stuff again during june break!
Another oso is got Chem Diagnostic test coming up too!
And I really wanna get to 1st class (so dat I can learn better)
If i ever go last 2 class, i wont get to learn electrolysis...

I am not studying or doing work at all! I played all de way...

(There's our 1 of our class monster)

Tmr going to stay over @ Mother's place till Thursday.

Not that I dont wanna go, i have lots of stuff to do importantly.

And seems like a wrong time to stay over.

I wanna stay over mom's place only after O levels...

But I feel guilty if turn her down now and all...

She oso lonely mah..

(random Gaga pic lol gun bra)

Anw, will somebody/something/someshit give me motivation to study and do work!!!!
I really nid to start or else its the end of my future...

+ I nid headstart for studying n doing work cos im super stupid.

(I will end up like this...)

Answers of a Morbid Birthday

2010-06-02T23:17:00.005+08:00

(My birthday gifts... thanks....)

Today is 2nd of June 2010

My 16th birthday! Most ppl will call it "Sweet 16"
But mine is rather different.

But first lemme sing.....

happy birthday to me....

(Happy birthday? Im not...)

nvm i dun wanna sing.

Here are some I&Q&A (info, questions, answers)

Yah I first wanna say, I hate my birthday.

I really absolutely detest this.

Why?

Becos birthday is the day I AM BORN, and I really cant stand and hate myself and my life.

And i know alot of ppl out there are worse den me by much...

So my most desired solution is

Those worse den me can take over my life,

while i disappear and become non-existent.
I'd rather not die cos its painful... + affect ppl around.

So, I hate my birthday....

Dats why on Facebook, I removed showing my birthday as reminder.

I dont like my birthday,

+ I dont deserve the mass flood of birthday wishes on my wall.

And to those who wished me even tho i din show my bday.

Thank you very much!! Made me happy tho i really dont deserve.

And to Maziyah & Marshall : TY for the Razer Keyboard!
Its very very gud! I must spam play after Os (If I survive)

I dun like my life... I dun like my class..my schl... myself blah balh

I hate my class all so damn smart one. Except me OUTSTANDING student.

Standing out of the rest for pure low IQ of stupidity.
I dun care those who did worse den me are angry for me saying i stupid

cos i wanna say this, u all din do well cos de effort u all put

wasnt enuff, or u all were lazy, So if u do put in effort/become less lazy

u all CONFIRM can do much better den me!
While Ive tried billion times! How lazy/hardworking i become,

I produce the same shitty results.

I dont deserve to be in 4E1.

(Ppl of 4E1 majority are as scary as this...)

And wads more, the ppl in E1 are so SCARY...

Really, I wonder how de hell they can study like siao, non-stop,

Some can totally dun play games, some can totally dun go out.

But dont worry, u all are normal ppl, im not. im a freak abomination.

And den while nowadays everyone is studying hard

(Ppl usually on Facebook are on9 less, MSN too)
I am online DAILY w/o fail and playing constantly....

I nvr study... I feel like im gonna do badly for Prelim, SPAs, and O LEVELS.

Im gonna repeat thousands....

Brandon Chew : Student of Tampines Secondary School 2007 ~ 2107

And once again to those ppl who are dropouts or worse,

U all have potential to do it ok. I dont.

(If only I was as talented as Maksim... look @ him...)

And even if I am not gud @ studies, cant I have talent for sth.

Sth that can make me have a gud future.

Mr Goh today said abt better to pursue dream den get a higherpay job.

Higher pay job I stupid obviously cant get.

My dream is to be piano performer or composer or anything i can do w/ piano and music!
But I have no talent... let alone become a prodigy.....

I have no other abilities... not gud in studying...music...sports...knowledge etc.

Wads dis?? Im born to suffer and die?!

So dam sad.. dats why I hate my birthday today T_T

Wish I wasnt born in the 1st place.

(Satanic symbol...... And no im not satanic...tis juz a pic)

Anyway now,

my birthday wish?

I wish dat I can be removed from existence, w/o feeling pain. or causing pain.

MYE Report Book, Chinese GCE 'O' Levels.

2010-06-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

Here to "update".

Got back Report Book last week.

The MYE result were solely on wad u score.....

And my L1R5 is 18! Greatest....

I cant even go to JC liao. Even if I do get higher,

My Chinese got E8, any JC oso wont accept me.

My English is very very bad! No one is to say my English is gud.

I got C6 ok. I dun tink dats gud lor.

And worstest of all, school excepts me get A1!!!!!
Miss Idzhana expect me dat too....
Walao lidat i dont wanna live anymore....

Anw, de I not contented with ANY of my subjects.

I dont care ppl going "Eh u got higher den me leh!"
(Please hate me! I love to be hated!)
Its nt up to my standard, i wont be successful in life.

Cos I have no talent in anyting!
At least ppl out dere stupid mayb gud in sports, talking etc.

Im empty...

Ok, today took chinese gce o lvl...

its chinese so i dam scared!

in the end, i found paper 1 really difficult....

paper 2 was easier den our sch MT intensive papers

but i still cant do it properly. i'll mayb get 20+/70 again...

i scared im gonna fail tis chinese o lvl, even de retake..

den i will kena cannt go jc, cos nid 2 @ least pass MT one...

Hate chinese! If only I took Malay, French or any other when young as 2nd lang...

Dun feel like going Julie's lesson tmr! I nid more rest!
And I realise everyone around me r alr working hard for u know.

I (nt lying) dun bother to study @ all still.

I hope i wont die!!!

Halo, halo, halo

2010-05-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

I like song Halo by Beyonce Knowles.
Though it did not reach the top number ones.
Only became no. 1 somewhere.
Becos the song is not dancish, modern, pop.
Its genre is Soul Pop. Soul isn't so popular to human ear...
Anyway, I find the lyrics extremely meaningful.
Can connect and touch the heart (Mine at least, duno abt heartless ppl lol)
The composure oso really gud.
Sounds very heartwarming, graceful and moving.
To me can come across as sad or happy song depend on mood!
I like the part especially "You know you are my saving grace."

Anw, look! Im here now blogging!
Tmr is Physics MYE leh! Im gonna fail really bad bad bad bad bad!!!!!
I very scared of Physics, my worst science ever cos of some1.
And I din revise much...
Another reason i sitting here in front of com now is printing notes...
Take super long to print one....

I dowan to be failing!! I alr kena discouraged by all de other papers!!
Which are all suppose to be better compared to Phy tmr!
Maths exception, I am extremely bad @ all maths of any type.
AM especially ah, i couldnt do properly...
I found dat AM Paper 1 quite tough...
Den alot alot alot of ppl said AMaths was easy and ok!!!
I shall take my usual place in last for A maths again bah.
Hope not!
Anw Phy I hope I aint the only 1 who not worked hard at all..
Tmr Phy is de subj I least worked hard 4 compared to all de others!

Not so maudlin, sleepy

2010-04-28T23:10:00.001+08:00

Today had MYE Chinese and English Paper 1.

I tink English was done ok, I hope can get nice marks...

But Chinese, I dun tink I will do well...

I finished Chinese in 1h 15min! Left 45mins to do nth...

Finish so amazingly fast lah, so i dun believe i did de chinese well.

De compo for chinese oso I felt I write too simple and too little.

Anw, dont feel so maudlin today.

Somehow feel ok ok. But very very tired.

MYE exam periood, NEED to study non-stop.

But den I din even start studying till now...

Always plan plan plan to do this and that, reach home, nvr do at all

I am scared I will do so badly... Language is still ok mah,

Dun really nid study much to do...

I wan motivation to study hard and long!

Anw, I today juz found out, de laptop i use,

my father gave to me! I tink he did gave to me long time ago.

BUt I still tot it was his and I was juz hogging it everyday.

This made me happy abit!

But still.....

I NEED self-mutilation

2010-04-27T00:30:00.004+08:00

What a fking coward i am.

Want to self-mutilate oso cant do it.

Stupid coward!

Everytime bring retracted penknife near to arm,

Pause and den dare nt do it.

Cos im scared of de pain or excessive loss of blood...

Wad a pussy.

Very overly sad till must cry blood.

I really nid to cut myself up to relieve stress alr.

i believe it shld rise to dat lvl.

Please god, do take me away painlessly and remove my existence.

My best birthday present ever.

Wait, I dont even deserve a present.

Dont deserve anything.

Even w/ sum ppl caring,

it wont be enuff, anw i dont even deserve any care

for being such a pain in everything.

Non-maudlin day, yet worrying

2010-04-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

Today was quite a gud day.

It's Mdm Loh birthday! Happy Birthday to her!
Her cake I carry from home all the way to school ah

Muscle ache, I tink the cake 2kg lah.

But for sake of nice Mdm Loh, its nothing!

Her Birthday Bash went extremely well! To me.

I tink she was very touched by us.

Somemore she nvr celebrate her bday lidat b4.

Manru did a very gud job w/ de vid even tho use Windows Movie Maker only!!
I tink the video was very moving and nice.

Anw, after school went home play game lyk siao.

Den left house @ 7pm.

Went to Airport T2 to eat Swensens!
Ate with Maziyah & Marshall!
Long time nvr sit bak relax and eat such gud food...

This released alot alot of stress made me feel so happy.

Ate Meatball Spaghetti Bolognaise, U.S. Fries, Mushroom Soup & Sticky Chewy Chocolate Ice-cream.
Eat till very corpulent and Im sure to grow corpulent today!

Den nwah arnd airport shortwhile den go home.

Tho kinda relaxed today,

I am very scared for MYE.

I havent done anything for MYE......

I gotta feeling Im gonna do badly.....

Please Do Well Please! Help Me!

Marshall's Hot n Spicy Fish Baked Rice!

Maziyah's Chilli Crab Spaghetti!

My Meatball Spaghetti Bolognaise!

My U.S. Fries!

DIE

2010-04-22T23:32:00.006+08:00

for the post, I will not hold back here.

I will not be my usual self for this post.

im gonna vulgar 24/7 and dont care if u r gonna b offended.

IM SO FUCKING MAUDLIN

NO IM NOT ANGRY BUT I AM VERY VERY VERY VERY SAD

I CAN FEEL MY HEART SHATTER TO INFINITE PIECES.

IM A FUCKING INCOMPETENT ASSHOLE

AND I CAN SAY THAT ALL THESE INSULTS ARE UNWORTHY TO USE ON ME AS WELL.

LET ME SHOUT SOMEMORE ON HOW FUCKING DUMB I AM

STUPID! ASSHOLE! FUCKER! SON OF A BITCH! HIMBO! UNINTELLIGENT! DULL! DIMWIT! BASTARD! NUTCASE! INCOHERENT DUMBO! DUMB!

AND I DONT GIVE A FKING DAM THAT I AM REALLY INSULTING OTHERS BY SAYING IM STUPID OR NOT!

I AM STUPID AND ALL AS DECRIBED ABOVE!

SO STRESS ALREADY! I DONT KNOW WHY IM LIKE THIS!

CANT CONTROL U KNOW! I AM BREAKING DOWN AND CRYING AND I DONT CARE

ANYONE CALL ME PUSSY SISSY FOR CRYING, CANT HELP IT OK

IM NOT AS FORTUNATE AS YOU ALL TO HAF BETTER LIFE DEN ME AND NOT BE HURT TO TEARS. MAYBE YES, YOU ALL MAY HAVE BEEN HURT TO TEARS. BUT I BET MY LIFE ITS TRIVIAL MATTERS INCOMPARABLE TO MINE.

I REALISE ALL MY YEARS OF SCHOOLING,

MY SISTER WON MANY AWARDS ON BEING TOP AND ALL

MY BROTHER WON CONTINUOUS IMPROVEMENT.

DEN NOW MOVING ON, I REALISE MY CLOSE FRIENDS,

ARE ALL FUCKING SMART PEOPLE GENIUS.

ALL OF DEM WON AWARD FOR TOP OR IMPROVE OR ANYTHING.

WHILE A FUCKING PILE OF BLUBBER LIKE ME WON NOTHING

[M][Y] [E][N][T][I][R][E] [L][I][F][E]!!!!

DIS GOES TO SHOW HOW DE GOVERNMENT UNDERSTANDS HOW STUPID I AM

I AM INCOMPETENT AND FUCKING BRAINLESS BASTARD

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY AM I NOT CLEVER?!

MAYBE BECAUSE IM A SON OF A BITCH. NO SORRIES TO YOU MUM,

I AM SO SO SAD........................................................................................................................

WHY? DIDNT E1? DEN NOT EVEN A IMPROVEMENT AWARD

I DONT EXPECT A TOP AT ALL COS I BET MY LIFE I NVR WILL GET TOP

YET IMPROVEMENT OSO CANNOT GET.

OH WAIT!!!!!!!! I DONT BELONG IN E1.

I REGRET THIS WHOLE THING

I MESSED UP MY FUCKING LIFE ENTERING E1

MY ATOM-SIZED BRAIN BELONGS TO E4 OR E5 OR MAYB NA OR NT.

PERHAPS I DONT EVEN BELONG TO THIS SCHOOL

THATS RIGHT! THIS SCHOOL IS TOO GOOD FOR ME

I BELONG TO DROPOUTS

I WISH I DIDNT EXIST! I WISH I WAS DEAD!

BUT DE THING IS, I DONT WANNA DIE PAINFULLY

TAKE ME AWAY PAINLESSLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WILL NOW REVEAL MY PLAN, LISTEN UP EVERYONE! (IF ANY1 DOES ENTER MY DUMB BLOG)

IN LESS THAN 2 YEARS TIME,

WHEN I TURN 18 YEARS OLD, I AM LITERALLY GONNA END MY LIFE.

SERIOUSLY NOT JOKING OR FUCKING AROUND.

DEN I SHALL ENJOY MY LIFE HAPPILY AFTER THE O LEVELS TO THE MAX

ONE MORE ADDITIONAL INFO, AFTER 2010, STARTING 2011,

I WILL COMPLETELY REMOVE FRIENDSHIP FROM EVERY1 I KNOW

FACEBOOK, MSN, HANDPHONE, AND BRAIN MOST IMPORTANTLY

DEN I WILL LIVE MY DESERVED LIFE OF SOLITUDE TILL DEATH AT 18.

FML

-WISH I COULD DIE NOW

Long time no post

2010-04-19T00:41:00.003+08:00

(And I am sick and tired of my phone rr-riinging)

Long time nvr post alr.

Well de whole week of tests of Sciences are over!
Feel the stress release abit.

Tho alot alot h/w. Now alr 12.45am lol.

I havent finish chem and geog cos so hard.

Not going to finish cos I really cant do it.

Anw, MID YEAR is coming up alr!
IM SO SCARED! IM NOT PREPARED.

Actually wad would be gud hor,

I do VERY badly for MYE, PRELIM.

Den I do VERY well in O Levels!
But juz a dream, dream on...

I must work hard.. But I cant seem to do so.

I feel lyk wanting to fall sick again.

So I can stay @ home and sleep for hours and hours.

Dat really made me feel so gud.

Anw, school life is like Lady Gaga's Telephone.

Which is the Fear of Suffocation.

Life crammed and piled with work (in our case schlwork, O lvls)
Full of work to do, too busy until

Forget to play, relax and and have fun.

Basically like a working robot constantly studying.

"Leaving your head(brain) and your heart on the dance floor"
So we studying lyk mad all de way,

Like robots with no brains and hearts.

Dats why I like Telephone the meaning. Reflects us.

FEAR OF SUFFOCATION

Maudlin, Envy, Singularity

2010-04-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

Rained today, whole evening + near whole nite.

I dont care wad y'all are opinionated here.

I will only come here to feel -ve.

Last week had a row of tests,

Fell ill too. During A M, E M tests.

Geog test was when I juz recovered on Fri.

But den de day b4 I was still sick, couldn't study much.

Surprisingly I made big improvements in both maths.

yah, im very happy abt it. But only a short while.

Wad abt the O LEVELS huh? Will I do tis well?

And I still feel maths (both) is my weakest.

Den today took bio test.

I sure do very badly, but can pass.

But being in E1, I (myself, not other ppl, myself) set my own standards.

Being in 4E1, I aim for High A1.
Now impossible le.

Anw crazy 1. Ytd couldnt study @ all.
In de end I juz briefly read 2ru. Last time for bio,

I used to memorise every single thing and make notes.

Slack lah. Or more lyk, lousy LQ brain.

K today oso took Chinese test which I missed out last week.

It was VERY OK! Cos I dont care how I do for chinese lol.

I tink will get 20+ only, it was kinda hard. But I dont care!

Anw, I am such a.... not bastard, not stupid.

All these are too un-insulting to describe me.
I am (A word dat doesnt exist which is de climax infinity worst of all)
I envy everyone arnd me, n really every1.

I even envy little ants dat i c crawling arnd.

In my eyes, every living or non-living things are always better den me.
I wish I could be more lyk all of dem....

Detest myself alot.

For example, when i c de ants,

I tink, ants lead a nice life, at least much better den mine.

If I was a choice over ants, ppl will definitely choose ants to me.

Ants are really hardworking, cute, strong and all.

Im nothing compared to them.

I also hate my mum & dad for giving birth to me.

I hope dey hate me too!
If only i dont exist... I have 2 much, as well as caused alot of problems.

Anw nvm, on de brighter side,

less den 2 more yrs I can listen to The Fame Monster's 7th song!
S.H.I.C.D. <3>

Decode

2010-04-04T21:44:00.007+08:00

Yes, this will be another maudlin day....

Just like everyday anyway...

There is no way to ameliorate these problems

I have persevered through all and still cant handle

I'm metaphorically suffocating. Stop calling, I don't want to do this anymore.

Anyway, Paramore says Decode~
Tis really sums up my maudlin life

And how I can listen to "So Happy I Could Die" by Lady Gaga in just 730 and 1/2 days!

U x a b r r a j w u r a b t n i e w !

u e a k k t e a k k t k i c e q w u g w b f ! ! ! ! ! !

V y r r g u a u a g i n i a w z y a k u r t . . . . R ) R

Q a g r U q u a g u a r g a r q w u g w b f q u k k v e x i n w f a t r i i.

U w z r w n w k t k i c e q w u g w b f r i s w a r g ! U q u k k si a b t u bf d ie gun !

U o e i n u a w u ; k k v w jub s .

u j b i q v w u b g f a t u a a x x w o r ws u b Au b f a o i e w,

Vyr U syb runj U xab ragab sw aixiak arufna abs qas nt debs qukk ru b j i d ne.

Vyr ud Qwu Gwbf ua fat abs kicea n w a b s xibdeaa ri ne,

U qukk wb rue w k t b r x a e w q a s i rgwea runj.

Aa kibf aa Qwu Gwbf abs U aew r ifwrgwe.

Vyr ua ua giowkwaa.... Gw ua araufgr U an ayew....

Abs g w ki c w s a f uek, s ewan a av r fu ek a, w c we tr ub f avr fu eka ibw...

R ua ua r gw na ub ew aaib qgt U an nays kub

Vwxi a Qwu G wbf u a are aufgr, U wcwet sat oeat sar U xa b vwxi nw areaufgr rii,

ai sar U qibr vw gyer abtniew. Vy r u ra ar ukk sw aanw , yaw k w ss .........

Wcwe tru n w Qwu Gwb f rak ja avr furka, U kk vw wzw r en ekt gy er.

This is why, I can't wait to listen to So Happy I Could Die.
Its actually a marvellous song really... Tho not alot of ppl listen to it.

But in de 1st place, dats becos ppl alr listen to Popular Songs,

But really, I prefer to listen to So Happy I Could Die.

Its abt Fear of Alcohol! Tho it sounds like it has nothing to do w/ me.

I dont drink! But I love So Happy I Could Die.

Anyone can decode that up there will understand my undescribable pain.

I alr gave up on my studies, I alr know that I am really stupid.

I am not smart, I know it alr. So wadever I score doesnt matter.

I know my character too, hated by every1.

Those who love my character, are foolish. My character shld nvr be loved.

I hope to change but it has nvr happened, I did put in effort but it doesnt make a difference.

So, So, So Happy I Could Die :)

Peace! - So Happy I Could Die

Everytime

2010-04-02T23:15:00.004+08:00

Notice me, take my hand.

Why are we, strangers when.

Our love is strong, why carry on without me.

Everytime I try, to fly, I fall without my wings.

I feel so small. I guess I need you baby.

Everytime I see, you in my dreams.

I see your face, it's haunting me.
I guess I need you baby.

I make believe, that you are here.

It's the only way, I see clear.

What have I done, You seem to move on easy.

Everytime I try to fly, I fall, without my wings.

I feel so small, I guess I need you baby.

Everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face.

It' hanting me,I guess I need you baby.

I may have made it rain.
Please forgive me.

My weakness caused you pain.

And this song's my sorry.

At night I've prayed.
That soon your face will fade away.

Everytime I try to fly, I fall, without my wings.

I feel so small, I guess I need you baby.

And Everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face.

It's haunting me, I guess I need you baby.

This is Everytime by Britney Spears.

And I have genuine typed de whole lyrics out abuv... no copy.

Tis song has been really meaningful to me.

It expresses how sad I am...

I juz hope 1 day all will be over...

Becos its true.

Everytime I try to fly, I fall without my wings.

CIP was fun

2010-03-28T02:39:00.003+08:00

(My fav Golden Retriever! Resemble Buddie abit)

K so late now but still wanna talk abt Friday!

Friday went to Ericsson Animal Shelter to do CIP.

There got alot of cats and dogs! Actually I not so interested in the cats one.

I wanna go there and play w/ de dogs!
1st de guy ask who not scared of cats go in clean de area.

I tot only gt cats inside so i dowan, i waiting 4 de part where can go to dogs.

Oso, I tot mayb if go to cats now, de rest may go to dogs.

In the end, make us who din go into cats area clean de outsides.

After dat halfway, me weiheng naveen asked de guy whether can still go in.

So get to go in! And I saw sum dogs inside oso! (Not w/ de pussies of cos)
Lol when 1st enter, I saw a bunch of cats staring up SAME place.

Dey were staring @ a very cute little mouse! Which is weiheng's relative.

Ltr went inside 1 of de areas clean up. I tink all of us play w/ de cats more den clean.

Gt 1 cat when I bend my head down (to look down @ sum cats), it will rub its head against my head! Very cute! Den oso saw tis cat w/ only 1 eye. poor ting but it is kinda happy living there.

But still gt clean lah. Next to dat area gt another area is full of dogs!!!!
Eng Peng camp @ de gate there watch & touch de dogs 2ru de gateholes.

After dat we all oso go there. Wanted to go in, so ask Mr Goh.

But in de end we din get go in!!!!!!!

After de cleanup, walked sum dist down, another animal shelter.

There gt alot more dogs!! Den after dat go to opposite sum big pet supply store.

Mr Goh treat all of us to a can of drinks! TY (Thank You or Ter Yang) Mr Goh!
Sumhow, daniel's mum came oso! But tis was coincidence.

Den me n weiheng go talk to her, she went dere same place as us is to buy food.

She say she driving from Hougang so nearby can drop by to buy food.

+ dunno wad gt sum special offer can buy sum big container to keep food

Only if you buy a big packet of dog food. She buy de dog food is donate to opposite that shop de dogs!

Den she was saying daniel avoiding him lidat.

She tot daniel gt cca on dat day 1. And when kip calling him on phone nvr ans.

But tat is becos he left his hp in his bag, which was left @ corner.

Daniel mum so rich and so clever lor!

Oh yah, i drank 3 cans of green tea... fat!!
After awhile, walked bak to de Ericsson farm again, den go home!
I enjoy all de dogs dere! The cats too actually!

Anw, today I only did Geog h/w!!! ONLY 1 h/w T_T
Still gt alot h/w to do... And i dun tink gt enuff time tmr!!
I cant get rid of my play play attitude...

Will try my best to finish up h/w tmr....

(CUTE HUSKY BATHING)

(Black dog!)

(Cat scratching while Prestela super engrossed in watching it...)

(Lil Pussies sharing cereal food)

Just 2 more years

2010-03-25T22:02:00.004+08:00

(Me ^^^^ guessed what happened to me in that pic?)

Just two more years... It's so damn long.

Can't wait for two more years to pass and the final destination of my desire arrives

Its so long! I cant wait!
Everyday keeps getting better and better....
I am really enjoying my life very much
Everyday is the best day of my life, I love it.

It makes me So Happy I Could Die.

I can already imagine it. Can picture my dreams of my final destination

Future awaits, I will then enjoy true happiness after that.

Gonna Die tomorrow

2010-03-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

AAAH!
I'm gonna die tmr!
Today Ms Koh scold us for not doing our h/w

which was suppose to be w/b & TYS.

But oso, she always not so specific one. Like "suggesting" us to do, not must.

Anw, I left my Chem w/b under my table today!!
And I have a lot to do... I tink I'll stay outta class tmr.

I oso havent done Bio tys any of it...

And I tink i left under table too...

So dumb! Hope wont die tmr....

Swimming, Sunburn, New Specs

2010-03-18T23:36:00.003+08:00

Went swimming with Wei Heng today.

Woke up arnd 8.30am so tired coz slept @ 2.30am.

Den we swim @ Ashley's condo.

I tink we all swim 6 laps breaststroke.

Den ltr swim 10laps non-stop.
After dat dunno play arnd in water lor.

Den Wei Heng suggest play game, 1 dun look, de other hide goggle so 1st person go find.
Lol when i was abt put on goggle, it snapped and broke!
After dat went Jacuzzi for some time.

Den rain! Quickly get out pool grab stuff go.

Den go tampines mall eat Yoshinoya, talk abt ghost stories and all ther oso.

After dat walk arnd and slack especially @ Toys R Us

Left @ near 6pm go Simei Eastpoint.
Coz I wan go there collect new specs!
My new specs I pay by myself de. I saved for a long time alr.

(This is for sakes of not lookin like Mr Ng!!!)
My specs are much diff from Mr Ng now! hehe

Sadly go shop, dey say not rdy, mayb dey deliver tonite or tmr.

Den Wei Heng wanna go see hamsters @ petshop de Pet Safari i tink.

Den go there c. The hamsters all so cute! drink water can c mini tongue.

Go see the puppies all so dam cute oso!
Got this Border Collie look really cute & its still a puppy, tho it was slping all de time.

Alot of de dogs were slping.

Also have a few maltese puppies very cute, 1 of em very playing keep jump.

Den got tis puppy I 4got wad breed le, it very very hyper!
1st it keep biting a piece of cloth and lie on its back.

Den ltr keep running round & round in circles all de way!
So hyper and playful I wan! Anw Yogi is sometimes like dat too.

But once she go hyper, she very crazy and playful.

Den while seeing the dogs, got a call.

De call is de spectacle shop person call, he talk to me so informally

Until I tot when he call, is my uncle calling or sth.

He ask whether i was still in Simei den say spec arrived

So in the end get to collect specs!
Total I spent $129 on specs! (With $100 discount voucher haha)

Oh yah due to swim so so long,

me and weiheng got sunburn. I tink weiheng's worse

coz he went swiming 2 days b4 oso.

I feel so hot and sweaty and stinging pain!
And duno why i feel so tired now..

Usually 3am den tired

Anw, i go slp now tmr got stupid schl nid wear fugly shirt

Miss Cabal, Old days

2010-03-16T01:00:00.003+08:00

Just want to say,
Miss the playing Cabal so much!
Good ol days...

FB Assassinate!

Wiz Space Collapse!

FA Shooting Star!

FS Shield Splinter!

BL Lightning Slash!

(No Warrior Sorry I dun have one!)

Die

2010-03-14T19:06:00.010+08:00

Reciba reprendiendo de más de 5 veces

Lamento que yo nunca existiera. Por qué debe yo ser enviado aquí.

Probebé para contribuir a mundo de.

Pero hasta ahora no he contribuido nada.

No dat yo dont quieren a

Espere que cada uno me odie. su para mejor dat camino.

sé im tan emo ahora dat puedo hacer otros morir. lamentable

pero soy egoísta perezoso grosero rebelde estúpido no valor para vivir en el mundo.

trate de cambiarse oso no puede tan quienquiera intentan me cambian imposible

quienquiera dicen sólo que puedo cambiar mí, su icant incorrecto

sólo traigo el dolor a mi familia.

el im seguro cada solo miembro de familia de mi familia me odia

acoso echan una mano, acoso se contribuyen, acoso la conversación y me comunico.

soy anormal. im / seguro

alguna clase de los desconocidos siendo existente.

im un parásito.

muchos consejos vienen para decir yo shld me cambian guarida gustaré yo

pero realmente intento el cambio pero no puede. y el color pardo dice que resueno el intento

juz me inclino tan demasiado mal.

acoso entienden como every1 alrededor puede ser tal gente agradable.

idolatrar/envidiar/celoso mi "frens", los dey son

tan sociable, tan amable, tan provechoso, tan filial, tan agradable, tan optimista

el dey puede ser feliz la mayor parte del tiempo.

y el dey arent odiado por su familia tanto como soy.

la parte al menos menor de sus vidas, los dey tienen el odio y la tristeza.

pero la parte principal es que ellos viven la vida al más lleno.

el w/o ppl odiando dem. yo oso dunno como dey son capaces de existir por una razón de gud en el mundo tis.

mientras existo para ser un dolor a every1.

Si sólo yo pudiera parecer exactamente a otros arnd mí w/o mucho dolor.

los dey son amados. sé que yo haf dado de oppoturnity soy amado, pero sólo si soy gud.

pero no puedo ser gud no importa como entonces voy a nvr ser amado o gustado.

Apologías a cada uno alrededor de mí para saberme.

Lamento todo el dolor de causo. y aun si u todo tink también he traído alguna felicidad a vidas de ur

incorrecto okey. no traje aquellos.

como deseo yo wasnt nacido. al principio,

mi madre era w/embarazado mí, mi abuela me pidió para ser abortado.

pero mi madre insistió en el cuidado de mí.

Acoso el cuidado im alr persona no filial.

Culpo a mi madre traerme al mundo tis.

Si sólo yo fuera abortado.

Mi familia se ofende por mí el más, toda em.

Realmente lamento que yo no pudiera andar de mi familia.

Y quiero hacer huelga en em no es becoz los odio. Sus becoz dey me odian y color pardo me quieren.

Vivo solo. ¿Pero en qué? nada.

El Dats por qué no prefiero existir.

el tis no es un poste para nada. permanecerá en mí para siempre.

yo puedo suprimirlo, o dejarlo.

ahora me doy 2 años. no humorístico.

yo giv yo mismo 2 años para encontrar un método de morir dolor de w/o.

de ser posible, quitéme de la existencia también.

el tis va a b exactamente como no nacer.

debo y recordarme

Ningún sorries a todos quién leyó este y la sensación incómoda.

Soy el mal y egoísta y acoso giv una mierda de como los otros sienten.

Haha

2010-03-11T23:21:00.001+08:00

Haha!! While afking in GE, got some random player recognise my Family & chars name!

More Telephone MV Previews

2010-03-10T23:06:00.003+08:00

(Granado Espada - my Fav = Musketeers)

Very lazy to post today...

And oso tired! Anw, started playing GE today!
Quite fun but really chim and difficult I could Die.

Facebook has been very crazy todae.

Everytym gt Error one.

(I really dun really lyk de yellow hair...)

(Hello hello baby you called I can't hear a thing)

(the mv = cont Paparazzi mv story, so tis must b when she in jail.."locked up")

(Ugly Beyonce!)

Tired, Telephone, Earth Song

2010-03-08T23:41:00.003+08:00

(MV coming out soon!)

OK am really tired.

Have headache coz played com whole day today...

Have a very bad cold oso...
My Nose very blocked coz stack w/ sinus.

So much chem h/w to do!!
I can't finish in time! Guess I have to die from Miss Koh.

Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce - Telephone Music Video

suppose to be released on Monday New York time!
I checked, now its SINGAPORE 11.45pm,

So New York is 10.45AM. I dunno.. Maybe @ nite den release...
Can't wait to watch it! Lady Gaga said

- "It's like a part 2 of the Paparazzi film, a continuation."

- "Paparazzi video I kill my boyfriend & get arrested into jail. This is where Telephone begins."
- "I pity Bad Romance's music video, Telephone's MV is gonna be so much greater than Bad Romance."

So I very de excited to watch it!! I heard its 12mins long??
Anw, hopefully tmr after schl can watch it!!

I wanna learn Earth Song by Michael Jackson on piano.

It sounds really beautiful.

Preview Pictures of Telephone MV!

(She looks weird...)

(Weird here too... but dancing)

(She looks quite good here)

(Crazy "outfit"! But nice body~)

Week 9,March Holidays arriving

2010-03-04T23:24:00.003+08:00

(Lady Gaga's AMA performance! I want a burning piano like that!)

This week had a series of tests!
5 tests altogether! Chinese, Chinese, Phy, SS, Chem!
Chineses were ok cos I dun really care how I do for it.

Physics was quite difficult! I tink got some qns came out

Which din seem like Vicky got teach b4 lor!

SS the qn was difficult to understand but can write.

But I only wrote 1 and 1/4 page. Seems so little.

Den Chem test was today! On Moles and blah!
I tink I will not do as well for this one....

Its so difficult and like no time oso.

This week oso got back many tests.

A Maths I din see my marks. But I tink its a complete failure.

I saw many crosses T_T
E maths was even WORSE! I wanted to not see marks oso...

But den I stapled de corner the marks,

Den next to it on de left got %tage of the marks...

So in the end saw... I got 58%!!!
Whats wrong w/ my maths?? I study so much & practice and no A.

Den Bio test got back. I was so nervous lah.

Coz Mr Goh said "Childreen, this test is a 100% application test not like the previous one which is 100% memorise and vomit"
I am very bad at application...

But in the I got 15/20! This is the only test I satisfied with!

English compre test got back, I got 14/25...

Dat is VERY VERY bad! Dun ever say my english good!
Look @ the mark!! I was aiming 18... Im such a failure in language now...

I hope my next compre test can get 18 ok!!! If not I will.. I will.

Nvm I will abt that next tym!

Anw, this week survived the many many tests!
So happy i could die! Tho tmr got Vocab test, but not in CA.

But then so much h/w! I havent finish 2 which nid hand in tmr!
Nvm lah, I MUST rest...

Now I have time to cont making Jody's album!!

I cant wait 4 March Hols!!!

FUCKING SONY ERICSSON HP SUCKS

2010-03-01T00:38:00.001+08:00

Feel so damn stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The stupid Sony Ericsson Yari phone SUCKS TO THE CORE!!!!!!!
Not only bring crazy mental stress, also bring physical stress

All stress!!! Buy new screen protector $8 den less den 2 days

Got air bubbles and shit inside alr. I crushed it and threw it away

I dun care i spent $8 and threw it! So irritating!!
ANd de man hu put in on oso shld shut down his stupid hp stuff business

So unprofessionally put de screen protector for me!
So ex oso! Curse him to endless blight!
I MUST go get a new one @ a real handphone shop and request for the BEST person.

If not waste money for juz a protector again!

Den I hate the phone yet again!!
Took some pics of Daniel from his birthday today

Wanna transfer to com oso cannot!
Com cant read phone! My com system aint dat old ok!
Even iphone itouch iorgasm all oso can read FAST and WELL!
This Yari phone last year early early came out liao!
SO its OLDER, and my com shld b able to read!
Even my com has de PC Suite program

Still cant read??!!

Den now, WTH is PC Suite for!!?! WAste time only!
Last time phones (Like my previous phone)
No need any Suite shit or wadever program to manage/transfer files

See? Why still nid program for this kind of stuff??

Juz make mass storage mode la!
I tried connect my Yari w/ mass storage, oso cant read.

This phone sux! My bro has an equally CONGRUENT phone

And it works very well! And ok mayb cos now i see my phone box cover,

It has a MADE IN CHINA on it! CHINA DEFECTIVE GOODS?
Waste so much money! I will have no future! And yet now still wan waste money.

Nokia so eazy use, but SHITTY quality spoil so much.

Sony Ericsson wont spoil so ezily. But SO PROFOUND all the stuff!!
Or maybe cos IM very very unintelligent, stupid, dumb, brainless etc

Dat I dunno how to use it! I knew it!
I even know how to use Ashley's iphone much more den this shit phone....

SO late alr!!! 12.50AM! Planned to sleep early one!
But I spent a few millenniums trying to connect phone!
Connect on main com tak boleh (even w/ program)
Now i use laptop oso cannot!! Must download some shit programs.

Program(s) ah! Its plural! I have to download ALOT!
And its still downloading ONE of it after nearly an hour!
I giv eup! I close it!!! I will not do anything w/ my phone anymore

Except play game, sms, calls DATS IT

Next week

2010-02-24T22:27:00.002+08:00

(Time flies so fast... O Levels are drawing close...)

Today had Chemistry SPA Exam.

It was less hard den I expected.

But still... I got it wrong! The processes are ez.

De rite empirical formula is MgCl2 and I got MgCl3!!
I hope dey do count ECF = Error Carried Forward

The Chem SPA is O levels T_T But then quite fun leh.

Bio and Phy oso did wrongly.

Anw, today took E Maths test oso.

It was very long! its a 55mins test!
And I couldn't finish 2 qns! I dun wanna fail!
I aiming for 25/50 now...

This friday still have A Maths test (My worst subj)
I hope I can do well for that one.

And not worrying abt this week's tests.

Next week even worse!
Got 5 tests! Chinese x2, Physics, SS, Chem!
Chineses I dun care, but I will feel stressed and energy taken away

Physics - I feel like I've not learn anything, 100% aint prepared for test.

Chem - Mole Calculation! I stare at ALL mole qns and "How to do???!"

SS - Memory work.. so tiring leh..

Must survive next week!!
And I just realise time flies so fast....

O Levels are really coming close.

A lot of Tests

2010-02-23T18:28:00.002+08:00

(Prepare for the Chemistry SPA O Levels!)

This week's pretty busy and extremely tiring!
Firstly, today did an English Compre test.

Den oso got Mother Tongue Oral exam!
I tink I did quite bad I spoke alot wrong words

And oso broken chinese! But at least my examiner is Wang Yong!
Hopefully he will give me average marks!

Then tmr Wed,

Got Chem SPA Exam! (The O Level DEAL)
I'm fking scared for this! My Chem deproved drastically!
And den the practice we did is only basics!
Like crystallisation... filtration... measuring...

As if SPA gonna be all these ONLY!
Hope its not titration! So difficult! I better learn all.

Then tmr oso got E Maths Test! Common Test!
Got so many topics oso! I bet I'm gonna fail or do badly for it...

SD, cmf, prob, prob diagrams, differentiation, matrices! TOO MUCH!!

Then Thurs? I tink got no test I hope.

Friday got A Maths common test oso.

Though its only Differentiation topic and Matrices,

I always sucked @ A Maths. So I aim for just pass.

Dis week already so tiring....

Next week is worse lah...

Feel so tiredly sleepy now, wanna sleep, but can't cos nid study.

But oso cant concentrate being sleepy...

I must try my bestestest!!

Good luck to all for tmr's tests!

GI3 Hairstyle! Argh!!

2010-02-18T22:51:00.003+08:00

(David Beckham with GI Hairstyle)

Ytd went to Simei Eastpoint,

Repair my phone cos cannot hear ppl when have calls.

In the end, is I din adjust the volume!!
I 1st time using Sony Ericsson mah,

Anw, den went to cut my hair to GI 3 Hairstyle!
Its lyk dat pic above lol, Im near bald!
It looks abit sucky but i cut it for sake of not look lyk Mr Ng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope it will grow bak soon and i can change de freaking hairstyle.

I learnt from CHI JU to shave haha!

Chinese New Year Visiting

2010-02-16T01:50:00.004+08:00

Been a long weekend and a short holiday...

____________________________________________________________________

YEAR OF THE TIGER

[Day 1 - 14 February, Sunday]

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy.

Went to the temple @ 12+ to pray for ancestors.

Den went to dunno whose house for visiting after temple.

I tink its my grandma's eldest bro house. (Father side)
Ate lots of rubbish.

Next went to grandfather's brother's house.

My grandpa's bro passed away juz this year early early..

But still see de wife so ok lor!
Dey cooked Maggi Mee for us to eat...

Becos she tot all of us would've ate @ my grandma's eldest bro house.

Den ate more rubbish. (Rubbish = chinese goodies/snacks)

Arnd evening went to I really dunno wad relative house.

She is i tink 90+ years old liao.

She cook very very nice! Got curry, noodles and all.

I ate alot here. Gonna grow fat!!
Collected alot of Ang Pao total! :D
But den ah, My sis & bro total get $304
I only total get $284... I tink i lost an ang pao lah!

____________________________________________________________________
YEAR OF THE TIGER!

[Day 2 - 15 February Monday]

Go my grandaunt's house today.
She cook soup, nuggets, asam babi, & sum weird dish i dunno how spell/pronounce.

Ate super alot here too!

After dat took taxi go to my Mother's house.

She alr preparing food. After dat she leave the rest of cooking to her fren

Who is staying w/ her too. Den we go her Sister's (my aunt) house.

All the way to Choa Chu Kang.

There got steamboat. Ate alot here again.

Den collect more ang pao.

Go bak Mum's house den ate dinner!
I LOVE my mum's cooking! Best of all!
I ate double de portion of rice usually eat (FAT!)
She cook Pong Teh (Some sauced chicken dish)
Prawn w/ liquor
Tomato fried fish

Some Pork dish w/ weird bunches of black hairs in it (Not really hair lah, juz look lyk)
And Pig Intestine soup, the best!!
Eat till stomach wanna kaboom!

Played blackjack w/ sis, mum + her fren and her fren's family.

Won only $2...

Cos first lose alot, den win alot den lose alot den finally win $2

Halfway I stop playing cos wanna go watch tv!
Watched MTV chnl Paris Hilton's BFF...

She is weird! The show is like a competition,

Like America's next top model lyk dat.

Paris Hilton slowly judge & eliminate ppl,

De last one(winner) will get to be her BFF (Best Fren 4ever)
Doesnt frens mean go out talk to strangers slowly know each other den become frens!
She is actually hosting competition to get a fren lol.

____________________________________________________________________
YEAR OF THE TIGER!!

Ok now its alr Tues 2am!
Tmr have to go schl alr #($*&#*(
I wanna die!
I dun wanna go bak schl!!

Tmr I must do alot of stuff alr.

- Do Phy E-learning h/w

- Do E Maths Matrix w/s given on Fri

- Do Chem Mole %tage yield learning w/s

- Revise on Bio!

- Cut hair (waste alot of time)
- Go Swimming

Hope got time play still tmr!

MUST TRY TO WAKE UP EARLY TMR!!

Overslept

2010-02-13T14:43:00.003+08:00

Ytd during PE ran 2.4km, halfway had leg cramp

Den for sake of wanna pass the NAPFA,

I cont running w/ leg cramp very pain tho.

Den finally finish, my leg felt bad.

Its @ de ankle down there.

Den after Mother Chng brief donno wad

I couldn't move my leg at all!
And after dat try to do some movement on it so can finally move again.

Then very pain there @ ankle whenever bend or move abt.

Cannot walk properly.

Den ltr Mother Chng wanted call my father fetch me bak

But I dun wanna miss schl!
So ltr convince her lemme stay for schl.

Then she brought me huge block of ice to ice my leg.

During E Math & Eng iced my leg to reduce swell.

Now alot better alr.

Thanks Mother Chng, Naveen, Wei Heng, Marshall, Maziyah, Faizah

For helping me and staying behind even during recess

And thanks those concern for me!

Also for Vanlentine's day, thx Jennifer & Juan Hui for the choco muffin

Bake very nice! Shld open bakery lol

anw. today I overslept till 12pm...

So late! I waste my time sleeping!
Still have lots of h/w to do and have to revise on Bio

But dun feel lyk doing it, holiday mood mah!

Juz brought Yogi down for a walk.

She a little bit sickly nid to eat some grass.

But den ah,for many many days nvr rain liao.

I go down, all the grass dried up and dead-like.

I din even see any orangey/greenish healthy grass.

(Orangey cos im color blind)
Den she go down din eat any.

After dat for exercise I walk up de stairs to 8floor my house.

Lol Yogi is FAT and low stamina

Walk up until 4th floor alr cant walk up le.

I carry her till 6th floor den put her down walk again.

She slowly walk up finally reach home.

Now I wanna go play game le.

Hopefully ltr will have mood do some h/w.

Chinese New Year coming

2010-02-11T22:33:00.001+08:00

(RED PACKETS! $_$)

Chinese New Year is coming soon already!
Tmr is normal day in school...

For the past 3 years always got half day one lor!
Somehow dis year dun have..

Anw, altho its Chinese New Year HOLIDAY,

Got alot of h/w and other stuff to do...

Hope got enuff time even tho got until Tuesday.

Anw I hope I will receive alot of ang pao and can keep some of de $$!

Can't wait for tmr after school!
Den can finally rest more!
Having reunion dinner tmr nite!

Tagged zzz

2010-02-09T20:36:00.004+08:00

Tagged by Wei Heng & David

1. Is there anybody you like now?
Lemme juz say i dun like myself

2. Have you ever fallen in love?
No

3. Do you like older guys/ girls, why?
Maybe

4. Who are the most important people to you?
Maybe

5. What/Who are you thinking of right now?
Maybe

6. What is your favourite colour?
Anything dark

7. Are you seriously in love?
No

8. Would you cry for the one you love?
Maybe

9. Have you ever failed in life?
That's why I dont deserve to live.

10. What is your full name?
Go find out urself

11.Do you like your surname?
Maybe

12.How long have you liked the person you currently like?
maybe

13.Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
No

14.Do you miss anyone now?
Maybe

15.Is there anyone you want to be with now?
Maybe

16.Name a friend whose name stats with 'Z'.
Zhi Wei

17.Which of your friend stays closest to you?
Maybe

18.Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
Yes

19.Are you mad about anything now?
everything

20.Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
Maybe

21.How do you feel about your life now?

wish i din had a life at all

22.Do you hate anyone?
Yes! myself!

23.Tag 5 people to do this survey :
I'm not cruel I won't tag anyone to do this

Weekend over soon. Bio SPA next.

2010-02-07T13:26:00.003+08:00

(random put pic, cos ashley said blog boring w/o pic)

Sunday alr weekend so fast gonna end!
I demand Friday = no school and Thurs = 12.30pm release!
I havent one my h/ws finish!
Everyting so dam hard till i wanna cry again.

Phy 1001 MCQ must do till qn87, I do till qn 50 w/ 3/4 I refer to ans.

Dunno how to do most of em at all! If this is O lvl standard, den I guess I fail le.

And then A Maths h/w I cant do 3 qns!! I completely duno hw start at all.

I feel like dropping A Maths alr la! So XXXXing lousy.

But worried if drop will affect my future bcome worse.

Then Chem TYS on Mole, out of nearly 20 mcq, I did ONE!
I again dunno how do all de rest...

Am I growing dumber & dumber everyday??

Anyway, on brighter side...

I went swimming just nw in de morning!
At my cousin Ashley's condo, which dey no longer stay suppose 4 rent.

But currently no tenant. Last time i go there kena chase out.

This time I have a Card Number which dey req!
So I din get chase out this time!
Now I can go in all I Want! And FREE! (instead of go swim complex)
Anw, I low stamina again, and sux I swim 2 laps have to raspy pant alr.

But hope this is gd exercise for me...

Bio SPA next week alr!
I really wonder, how to study for bio spa?

I know phy can mmrise some stuff, but bio leh?
I hope I can do well for bio SPA too.

Physics O Level Practical SPA 1/3 done!

2010-02-05T16:26:00.003+08:00

Did O Levels Physics Practical SPA today!
I was so very nervous till I keep making mistakes

Den waste time keep erasing and changing ans.

The qn was on Total Internal Reflection.

Though only nid use Glass Block and Optical Pins.

I drew from 30degrees to 70degrees

Den becos I drew in portrait format of de paper

And also traced the glass block in the middle of the paper,

My 70degrees ray and the emergent ray cannot converge!
Suppose to converge den find de angle..

The rays juz go OFF the paper cannot converge unless i paste extra paper @ de side.

Den no choice I juz see the trend and write my 70degrees de ans value.

I calculated gradient oso calculate wrongly!
My gradient off de ans alr...
David Pro of Phy Practical ans was -2
Mine is -1.65 is FAR off the range...

Wads more I din write the 'k' value.

My Physics O LEVELS SPA fail le...

I can never go JC or Poly!! (I know i still can)
But I don't deserve to go there at all!
I wanna cry.

Totally Discouraged...

2010-02-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

I feel like quitting studying alr...

I can't stand the pressure anymore...

I see all my h/w how long I stare @ it and still unable to do it...

Think so hard oso not even 1 clue or one word to write...

Everyting is so difficult for me... Why isn't there something dat I find easy?
I want to totally give up on studying

Dun do h/w.

Dun study for tests.

Dun do any schl related stuff.

I feel like dying alr...

This Physics w/s I stare @ rite now, I completely dunno how do.

Last time used to be so good in Physics too.

Now wad happen? Brain cells destroyed, Im dying already anyway.

I hope 2012 is true and I can finally die early.

Nothing Much

2010-02-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing much today.

Went for AVA, very boring do the stock checking.

Now doing h/w, everyday must do one...

Looking forward to CNY rest AWHILE.

But I tink got CNY h/w one.

And yesh!!
I finally changed my blog Music Player and the songs!
Srry to those enter my blog den music blast out.

1st song Bad Romance is kinda loud compare 2 de others.

January, 1 month over

2010-01-31T21:47:00.002+08:00

January is gonna end soon...

One Month pass by so fast!
O Levels are coming even closer now.

And I not rdy to take any exams at all!

This week got ALOT ALOT of h/w,
I have not finished all of dem even till now.

Den I'm so scared for Chem test and Phy SPA.

I hate h/w! School shldnt flood us w/ too much h/w.

Give us some can lah, but dun overgive till cant finish one.

And I am so sad dat I gain weight even tho i eat less den b4

And also exercise so much den b4.

I tried again went to Bedok Reservoir walk 1 round.

Now so tired. Dun wan to cont h/w.

Tests all coming I really really nid do notes!! But very XXXXing tired!
I tink i will go and do badly for these few tests.

But Phy SPA I dun wanna do badly!! Im scared!!!!!

Mass Run Day

2010-01-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

Walked to Bedok Reservoir Park today.

Mass Run was ok. I walk run walk run.

Then after that must sit down under hot sun

To wait for the prize all given.

Very long lor! Waste alot of time.

So many h/w this weekend.

And also got almost like 3 tests next week!
Physics SPA O LEVEL Exam!
I am XXXXing scared of it! Dat time Vicky did a mock SPA test on us.

All of us (I tink) din finish at all!

And also I did wrongly.

I really hope I can do well for SPA.
How to study and wads there to study for SPA exam ah?

Then on Thursday got Chem Test

On 3 chapters - Redox, Atmosphere, Ammonia!
3 chapters too much for me! And my chem is going downwards too!
I am also scared of this test.
I bet I will kena pull down to P2 or P3 after the test.

Then this 3rd "test" is English idioms/phrases test.

By Miss Idzhana, I dun like this test!
Dunnid give lah! I dowan study for it!
But I tink she will punish.

Wait now there's 4 tests.

But Bio coming test on Homeostasis is 2 week after (week 6)
But still Bio my weakest Science & I scared Goh set thinking qns.

I weak at that >:(

I think Im gonna go TAF club if it ever does start.

Cos I exercise, eat less, still GAIN weight.

And previously I eat alot alot as much as I can

Never even exercise at all unless u count walking here and there.

Then I maintain my weight nvr gain at all.

Got possibility that my height inc ABIT or gain muscle.

I know I will NEVER gain muscle cos I din even train.

Abt height, I oso say I din grow, I dun feel taller

And i ask grandma i got or not she said "No lah!"
So sad wads wrong w/ body...

Am I unhealthy??

I shall still cont exercise and eat less for mayb a month more

Den see got result not. If inc weight again, I shall go back to eating like a pig and dun exercise.

Too much h/w nid do now!!!!

A Maths sucked, Bio rocked!

2010-01-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

Today got back many tests.

Firstly, got back A Maths Partial Fractions Quiz.

I got 7/13. I suck! such a XXXXing failure in A Maths.

I studied hard for this and get 7/13.

If I don't study hard oso get this type low marks.

So, I am not cut out for A Maths, no matter what!
Next time no nid study for A Maths tests le.

So sad over my A M marks lah.

Den I dowan to become more -ve & sad.

So I stapled my E Maths SD Test w/o looking @ marks.

I dunno marks~ And no one tell me my marks please!
No matter how sucky or good it is.

But good thing is, Bio Test on Excretion,

I scored 17half/20! This is de 1st time I done well for Bio!
So happy my studying for bio paid off.

But the sad thing is, Mr Goh said this test is 100% memory + vomit.

So I am good w/ these type.

Then got the graph inference, crazy thinking skills type of qns,
Cannot memorise and vomit out.

Must think hard one!

This is the type I SUCK 100% becos of this Mr Goh always set this type of test

Thats why I keep failing bio. Memorise + Vomit = Do Well.

The thinking qns type is so hard lor!
I feel its only for clever ppl.

They dunnid study, do these thinking qns and can do well.

I think how hard still wrong 24/7.

Goh said 45% memorise vomit, 55% tinking for O lvls.

I can alr predict my Bio result for O lvl,

40/45 & 10/55. so I will get 50/100 I guess.

Yah, pass but I wan A1 leh!
Stupid idiot tinking qns! I still tink tho 10/55 is too much for me still.

Anw, tmr got Phy SPA Practical practice only.

But its a test still. Vicky de Monkey gonna test!!
I hope i can do it.

Then tmr oso got SS Test on Rise of Venice!!
I hate SS! I have deproved @ last year.

My class assignment SEQ got 9/12.

But thats cos its a class assignment, I copy paste every single word in de t/b.

For tmr test, I must memorise & and put in nicely! >:(

If I could get 9/12 for this test I will orgasm out of happiness!
I juz studied SS only, very blurly memorised afew points.

The other points I dun care, my brain dun wan absorb.

And again, A Maths got test tmr on Differentiation.

As mentioned above, I will not study for it!
I want drop A Maths! But if drop Im sure I will not have good future...

So I'll just try my best lor...

Cancelled Piano Class tmr! :D So Happy!
I dun wan go piano @ 6.45pm den reach home @ 9+pm.

Last FINAL lesson this Sunday den no more piano!
(Until after O lvls I tink I will cont)

Tired Tired Tired

2010-01-26T22:17:00.001+08:00

Tired again today!
Considered normal alr.

I have my dowan-study mood nowadays!

I dun feel like making notes or studying at all.

All along I've been planning to do so still procrastinate!
Im gonna die for SS Test A Maths Test & Chem Test coming up!
I dont feel like studying for them at all!
And imagine O lvl i like this...

Hope can feel like studying again soon.

But I tink i feel like this is cos I feel too tired everyday to make notes or study.

Doing h/w is a must so painfully do it!

I dont mind studying alot if only I had the energy.

And I dowan take coffee/red bull/energy drink

Just to have energy to study,

+ after de energy effects over, u will feel worse!

Now struggling to do Bio Graph.

Tmr got In-Focus A Maths I havent done at all!
And Mdm Shareena reminded us to do by tmr!!
Nvm, i HOPE i can escape by saying I dunno how do.

I only did 1 qn though.

But I feel bad inside, cos i dun do its like = not preparing for O lvls.

Everyting in mind is O lvls so irritating.

Hope for WEEKENDS to come can relax abit.

Anw, In-Focus is gonna be cancelled next week onwards YESH!!
But will resume after March Holidays leh.

And I heard will become more intensive.

Such cruel!

School Week again

2010-01-25T18:28:00.001+08:00

School week again.

SS Test on Thurs, A Maths test on Fri.

Will be extremely tired again.

Only thing to look forward to is weekends again!

Weekend!

2010-01-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

Agh weekend always so fast go by one!
Now alr Sunday...

I need weekend to survive! Rest!

Did SOME h/w still have some more.

Went Bedok Reservoir today.

Was kinda fun went @ 7pm.
Turn dark that time so fun to walk/jog alone w/ long path.

Dunno why.

Anw, walked/jogged 1 round whole reservoir!

The place got change abit.

Cant wait for next week Mass Run sounds weird I want it

But at least its not STUDYING or doing work.

My aunt's tenant who rent the condo near Bedok Reservoir

Left go overseas le. Now the condo aunt own is empty.

For time being, by Feb got new ppl come rent.

So now aunt has the card of identity or wadever for the condo!
My father borrowed the card so that he can go swim in condo in peace.

If not no card, the guard find u unfamiliar will ask for the card.

So now I wan go swimming @ the condo again!
I feel more "at home" swimming at the condo & extremely convenient.

Also got better toilet den public, and no nid pay $.

If I go then bring the card I wont get chased out!
Not like last time i go w/ weiheng kena chased out cos no identity or blah blah.

Still have h/w to do...

And tmr celebrating Mother's bday (Very late le) in the afternoon.

Still got E Maths TYS, A Maths TYS, Ms Koh's Mole chapter notes left in schl.

Oso got Zarinah's Infocus w/s to fill in.

I oso nid to start study SS - Venice cos I sux @ SS very badly.

And at same time i wan make Bio notes on Homeostasis too cos I sux @ dat.

Everything I sux lah. Must make notes for every single subject.

Hope got time..

Sec 4 is tiring

2010-01-21T21:32:00.001+08:00

Wah Sec 4 tak boleh tahan!
As each day pass, i feel more dead and sleepy and tired and etc...

Alot of h/w everyday! Barely enuff time to grow tall or do h/w or revise!
So much stress and its still January!
I wonder if February become more tough more h/w.

Den ltr every month become tougher, by O lvl die le!

Anw, June Holidays oso got In-Focus!!
Nvm if got lah, but on the FIRST TWO weeks!!
NO! I have to go back to schl on birthday to STUDY!
Suck! aah! Nvm now dun care still far away...

To relieve stress + to ensure dun go TAF,

I tink Im gonna go Bedok Reservoir Reservoir tis Saturday.

I shall go there to WALK 1 round.

Then I can also "prepare" for Mass Run NEXT Saturday mayb haha.

I hope got not too much h/w, if not i may not be able go walk walk...

Positivity

2010-01-16T01:07:00.001+08:00

AAAH I dowan to be sad anymore!
I shall try to be a 100% positive person!
Maybe can help me do better in schl and stress.

Everyone around me pls help if can, if cant nvm!
I must tink de good things of everything!!
I must delete Emo Songs!
I must smile to strangers!
I must tink good stuff when i tink of bad stuff!

From online website! Hope this works!
Lol @ smiling to strangers.

They will think : " this person retarded, suddenly smile at me"

Long time not use com

2010-01-14T23:16:00.003+08:00

Just today suddenly felt like using com so use!
Today went out after schl to celebrate Juan Hui Birthday!

Anw again,

Happy Birthday JUAN hui!

Went to Pasta Mania to eat to celebrate Juan bday.

Juan hui, yong song, jennifer, zhenqi, david marshall were there.

Ordered Beef Lasagna very delicious!!
Only thing i will comment on is, too small! not enuff!
Then walk around Tampines Mall only @ de top lvl tho.

Then went home.

Long time din blog of cos is very busy too much h/w.

I can see/feel de difference!
Sec 3 I really can say less h/w and pressure den Sec 4.

Now only January and everyday almost a lot h/w.

Sec 3 near exam far exam wadever oso not as much h/w one.

Then IN-Focus starting soon next week...

Freedom afternoon gone...

And Chem alr bad enuff I am 100% sure i kena Low Band.

Den now Bio OSO wanna group by banding...

I am sure to kena Low Band again.

And so good High Band and Mid Band no nid go IN Focus one...

I bet Physics gonna have banding soon no matter wad.

All Mr Bala doings, I dun like this system!!
I feel so unfair lah! I feel de High ones get good teachers.

Low will get not as good, and will thus do badly.

I dowanna do badly! Not this year!!

And I realise I am VERY bad at Sciences.

Chem deproved alot and going Low Band,

Bio has always been Low Band,

Phy I tink if got banding ah, I at least get Mid Band bah.

But I wan High Band!! And Phy oso deprove.

And not only I extremely bad @ sciences, Mathes oso!
My E Maths ok but i scored lower den previous.

A Maths I wanna give up on it.

I feel I am no matter wad unable do A Maths.

I hope I can get score single-digit for O lvls lor

This is de BIGGEST dream of school life i have.

I am 99.99% chance I will get single digit.

Hope de 0.01% comes true..

I feel so stressed and dumb dat i cant do my h/w properly!
Everyting i must 24/7 ask sister, refer.

4e1 full of geniuses, where i dont belong.

But good thing is, in 4E1 u will be forced to study and do abit better.

Tmr Friday!! Can rest after dat!
And Sat Sun must spend time rest oso!
But oso nid study for Bio test.

I hope i got time play too.
Play awhile to at least feel less stress

Sec 4 sux

2010-01-08T23:49:00.003+08:00

Din blog long time cos kinda busy w/ Sec 4 life le...

Got quite alot of h/w a day and den there's some tests.

Everyday feel tired feel lyk sleeping.

Hard to do h/w. Sleep @ 11+ nowadays.

Wake up oso will tired. everytime tired.

Today did a Chem test on lyk end year lyk dat.

This Chem Test was to band us and grp us into different groups.

Of the Sec 4 cohort for the IN-FOCUS lessons.

I did extremely bad im sure. Its so dam dam difficult.

I tink i will end up in the 4th or 5th class of In focus....

Irritating lah!! I wan first class!! Den I will benefit...

And then, 1st PE lesson take height and weight.

Daniel measure de height cos he is tallest in class.

Ok, my weight inc by 0.5kg I guess.

But den my height din inc at all! I cant believe it!!
I wanna die! im depressed! stopped growing???

I dowan to be this SHORT!! 167cm not enuff!
Even de other shorter den me ppl in class have chance to grow a few more years lah!!
Mine is stopped growing alr lah!!!!! 1 whole year not even a 0.1cm inc??

sob sob Im so short. Wish to be 180cm den can stop growing!
And den im in TAF again i guess.

Cos no inc in height but got gain abit weight which makes alot of difference.

And den I am planning to stop learning piano for this year.

To really have time to concentrate on O lvls.

If have normal lesons its ok lah

But if take lessons I will be having Practical and Theory Exams coming.

Den I will have use some time to practice mah.

Even if I cont lessons w/o taking exams for this year,

Wasting money. I take lessons to take exams to get better mah.

(Though I dun feel lyk im gettting any better at all)

Sec 4 alr lo! I havent chose my path yet.

I dunno wad courses to take and all so until now,

I cannot decide to go jc, poly, ite.

Actually I feel I've decided I want a music course.
I love music. But as aforementioned, Im sucky at music.
I dun tink i'll be good enuff to go to music schls de scores are quite high.

So, if music not good, wad else am i good at?

Eng - B3 (ok but not excellent, cant only rely on english)
Chinese - C5 (dats bad ok? but i dun really care for chinese)
E Maths - A1 (Ok mayb this may help?)
A Maths - F9 (No! I have no talent for A maths after all!)
Bio - B4 (Mr Ang's exam papers are easy! But O lvl not sure)
Phy - B3 (I feel can do better, but wad will i combine w/ to help in future?)
Chem - C5 (Omg help me!! Chem is impt!! Julie isint helping me at all!)
SSGeog - B3 ( I hope to get A1 but SS is lyk so difficult.)

Now is there anything im good at??!

And I wan go poly!! Cos i tink thats where i belong, 2nd home is ITE.

JC I badly wanna go cos of the "status" and its direct easy go University.

But I feel I cmi to JC, I can go average ones, but I dowan if its average.

I feel lyk I'm so helpless to almost everything..
I need alot alot of help...

But I dowan any help from anyone at all!
I wanna survive only by myself!
But cant do so...

NO Happy New Year

2010-01-01T01:23:00.002+08:00

(NO!) Happy New Year!
Its 2010 y'all! A decade has passed since 2000.

I can't stand it! It's finally here...
Anw still, I hope to be able to cope for O lvls.

Stayed @ home while father, bro, sis all go out w/ their own frens watch fireworks i guess.

Aren't I a loner? But it's still fuN!
Celebrated New Year countdown with the ppl in Cabal!
The players for de lvl 61~94 Mission War.

Was sorta fun!

Gathering to have a countdown!

Getting ready to shout...

Happy New Year!

New Year is coming soon...

2009-12-29T22:23:00.003+08:00

OMG New Year is coming soon!
2010 is coming soon!
I hasn't done the homeworks yet! Not 1 at all!
I'm gonna die!!

And 2010 is the start of a new year good for almost everyone.
But not good for me!
2010 is the start year of O Levels!
I hate O lvls! I bet I will not be able to do it.

Anw, New Year will be 3 days away from now...

Fun to countdown to a HAPPY New Year but not fun

To count down to O lvls.

Learnt how to play Dance in the Dark by Lady Gaga on piano today!
Some parts are rather difficult to figure out.

My hearing ain't that good after all.

I have a whole list of songs I still wanna learn!
Just Dance, Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say), Beautiful Dirty Rich,

Again Again, Monster, Alejandro, So Happy I Could Die, Teeth, Telephone.
Dam lot I wanna learn and hope I can do so...

Not looking forward to New Year at all.

Christmas 2009

2009-12-25T13:34:00.002+08:00

> Seasons Greetings from Lady Gaga~

Merry Christmas Everyone!

May everybody enjoy themselves and receive alot of presents!
Let us celebrate the birth of Jesus!

Christmas wrappings done!

2009-12-19T01:05:00.003+08:00

- Heartbeats In-Ear phones by Lady Gaga/Dr Dre.

Today learnt to play more of Lady Gaga - Brown Eyes.
Then played game almost whole day.

Then cabal got some emergency maintenance 4pm to 5pm.

And my father came back so early @ 3pm!!

He nagged say I everyday lie on bed play game or eat.

Then so naggy and i feel awkard to cont playing.

So i bluff him I going to tampines mall w/ frens.

He suddenly lyk "happy" dat im going out.

So i left home juz walk around aimlessly.

Then walked to tampines mall.

Just nice m2 nided to go tampines mall too!
Then met up with him.

he had to do some "chores".

Buy movie tix for ltr @ nite watch w/ family.

And go library return and borrow books.

Went to Popeye's and eat.

My first time eating there!
The Lady @ the counter spoke SO FAST.
I was so blur den lyk anyhow play order.

I ordered spicy chicken.

Then de lady debated fastly dat spicy only left wings wanna switch to normal.

But she say so fast dat i just blur blur say nvm take wings.

I dun lyk eat wings! But nvm lor.

K, I find deir chicken and fries really good!
Then dey give this weird flour-ish biscuit, i dun like.

@ the counter in de middle on ( i got served by 1st counter)

The 3rd register says "Welcome to Popeye's I'm Ellen"
Then de 2nd register says "Welcome to Popeye's I'm cashier"
lol dat person named cashier ah haha

Then walked around TM, TM1, CS.

I was searching for the earphones Heartbeats by Lady Gaga/Dr Dre.

The sound quality is very good I heard.

And then dey say out in December in Singapore.

But I cant find dem in any electronics store!
Juz de other day i went Harvey Norman & Best Denki in Parkway,

Also cant find. The internet say dese retail stores have one.

K after dat 6+ near 7pm go home le.

I cont playing and today cut birthday cake for my Aunt.

She is 38 years old now!
Dey go home 11pm.

Then I started wrapping all the Christmas presents I bought!

I wan Heartbeats! :( But so ex oso...

Christmas is coming soon!

2009-12-16T22:13:00.001+08:00

9 more days to Christmas...

Holiday is already ending so fast...

I really don't want to go back school, face O lvls.
I'm not good in studying at all, I want to do something else!

I want to learn how to play Haru Haru by Big Bang

And Mad by NeYo on piano! But the dam music, piano very soft,

Singing and rapping and drums blah so loud.
So i cant learn dat well by ear.
Lady Gaga songs learn by ear easier cos her piano is loud.
Maybe I'll try find sheets.

Shopped for Christmas!

2009-12-14T13:18:00.002+08:00

Sat Sun nothing much juz play play!
And I'm so scared! I havent done ANY h/w at all...

I dun even rmb wad to do...

Anw, ytd slept @ 4am.

Then today planned to wake up @ 8.30am one.

But i tink my body auto off de alarm and slept till 10+.

Left house @ 10.30am go Parkway Parade.

Cos I have a due soon piano fees to pay.

So go all the way there pay...

But at the same time, I go there to shop for Christmas presents!
Christmas is coming soon anw... Which means New Year oso coming soon...

Which means start of New Year O LEVELS! OMG I WANNA DIE!

Bought gifts for every1 im close to (I guess)
Din spend dat much but is the thought that counts!
And lazy to wrap dem... Usually i have maid to wrap for me.

But now dun have so...

Then I oso dunno how am i gonna pass the presents to every1!

Tmr got extra piano lesson, den Thurs another lesson... so sian

Stayover @ Mummy's House

2009-12-11T23:54:00.002+08:00

Korean Drama - "Who Are You?" Love it!

Tuesday to Friday (Today) stayed over @ Mom's house.

First on Tuesday took bus, train, bus then reach Mummy house.

Then reach there 6+ go down to coffee shop eat dinner.

Next day Wednesday whole day stay at home.

Me and sis watch a Korean Drama called 'Who Are You?'

I love the show! It's very nice and interesting!
Watch till 6pm then go Orchard Road eat dinner and walk.

Went to a Korean Cuisine Restaurant.

Ate self-cooked beef & chicken, some weird korean rice, kim-chee,

Ginseng chicken soup and a weird Ginseng drink but very nice.

I realise most of the Korean Food side dishes are cold.

Reach back mummy's house cont watching the drama.

Next day Thursday woke up play laptop awhile.

Then go piano class @ Marine Parade.
My mum stays @ Henderson Road quite far away.

So she gave me money took cab go there come bak.

When came bak on de way bought bubble tea from Koi's Cafe.

The bubble tea ex! bought 3 Medium sized Milk Tea for $7.80.

Cont watch the drama and finished the whole series!
And I learnt this word very well cos its mentioned often!
Dunno wads the spelling.

But they lyk to say "deh" (Pronounced) means "yes".

Keep hear de lead female char say deh deh deh deh.

But funny lah the show and romantic too.

Friday today, woke up @ 2pm lol.

Mummy cooked food. And I love her food! Its the best!

So delicious. Even more delicious den the coffee shop downstairs.

She cooked Mutton Curry, Pork Ribs Soup, Mushroom & Chicken which

has some kind of weird bunch of hairs in it (Its a veggi really, not hairs)

From 2pm to 8pm ate at least 4 plates.
Den 9pm + took cab w/ bro and sis go home.

Now I'm back!

Dead

2009-12-03T00:35:00.002+08:00

Long time no update again...
I dun care just bored now...

Ytd (Wednesday) went chinese sinseh again.

Did acupuncture w/ 6 needles.

1 @ forehead, 1 @ above nose bridge, 1 @ top of right hand,

1 @ left elbow, 1 @ left back neck, 1 @ right back neck.

Cos suppose to cure my sore throat, flu, phlegm blah blah.

Then very pain @ de right hand lor. leave de needles on for 10mins.

Whole day play game.
And play facebook games..

Mr Goh is kinda active in facebook games and quizzes!

I feel so dead... not sleepy...

Maybe slp will feel better gnite

2E1'08 Chalet The Best

2009-11-30T12:23:00.003+08:00

Ok years since I updated cos im too lazy.

I'll now update abt class chalet!

24 Nov ~ 26 Nov (Tues ~ Thurs)

Day 1

Marshall, David & BJ came over my house

So we can go tgt, played computer and all first!
Den actually de day b4 Celine said she would meet us @ downtown east ent.

Help bring us to the chalet. In the end she not there.

But luckily we found our way there.

Had BBQ and played monopoly & Uno.
Miss Shen was alr there and Mrs Chng came @ 8+ i tink.

Then all of us watched Ju-on 1.

It was scary lah! The ugly ghosts look so shocking.

Then always Boomz pop out of nowhere.

Me, David, Marshall, Jennifer, Zhen Qi, Shermei, Celine, Amalina

All of us were the only once who stayed over.

Then we all decided to go watch the sunrise @ Pasir Ris Park.

Was 3.30am i guess den we suppose to slp for only 1h den 4.30am get rdy.

Zhen Qi 100% nvr slp at all she's a ghost!
Then went to Pasir Ris Park waited for sunrise for so dam long.

Kept changing place to wait oso.

In the end we face wrong place, we missed sunrise...

Then went bak and cont slping.

Day 2

Went Mcdonalds buy for breakfast.

Shermei Amalina David Jennifer Zhen Qi Marshall all slping @ chalet still

Ate Big Breakfast! Celine somehow had gastric but after go toilet better

Then i tink 11am the malay boys came over.
Went walking around first I guess? Cant rmb.

Then ltr David and Celine go bowling me and m2 follo and wait.

Reach back chalet every1 else went cycling. Celine oso! So energetic

Me david m2 stayed in chalet. Watch tv and all.

Oh yah and went to bought KFC eat.

Then at nite all of us 2e1 went to some coffee shop for dinner

Eat tgt u know. Sat at table w/ david m2 yuhua

m2 and yuhua ordered mee soto i tink den chilli hot.

Paul Intelligent/Smart/Genius/Enlightment took Yuhua share!
Me and david were somehow not hungry juz drink milk tea.

At nite all of us watch Paranormal Activity & Ju-On II.

The Paranormal Activity was very creepy and shocking!
Show this couple filming their lifestyle w/ a ghost haunting them.

Then in the end the girl kena possessed and kill the BF.

But the ending was faked and actually the BF still alive.
I tink the girl is really dead cos kena shot by police.

U know ah after de possessed girl kill the bf, she go bak bedroom.

Sit on floor and do some rocking motion (while knife still in hand)
She did the rocking motion back and forth for 1day +!
And also creepy b4 the killings, she kena possessed,

will get out of bed stand in front and stare @ de bf for 3hours.

Stand so long leh! So poor thing the couple... And so scary.

Ju-On II started dat time me debbie, m2, david take a rest went outside.

oh yah Marisa watch de Paranormal Activity scared den dowan watch Ju-On II.

After dat every1 left i guess den de usual ppl stayed.

Shi hao, kenny, jerry, javan, samuel, brian, bj, zhi wei & gideon <>

They sort of stayed overnite. But stayedoutside play.

De opposite rm chalet came knocking in our room to borrow scary movies.

Then we lent the ju-on II.

We all then played Blind Mice in the room so fun.

Then tried to tell some ghost stories, play "Musical pillows"

Then ltr we borrow movies from the opposite room too.
Wanted watch Friday the 13th but cos every1 actually wanted GHOST shows.
Not serial killers. So borrowed the show Mirrors. I watched b4 abit.

That show quite nice, Halfway the show, the opposite rm ppl came over to watch oso.

Then show finish dey return bak to their rm and all slp.

By time we watch the show hor, its 5am+

Only me david jennifer, zhiwei and samuel was watching all the way.

After movie took a walk outside w/ david and zhiwei,

Then came bak slp for awhile.

Day 3

Celine rush us! We had to check out by 10.30 if not charge money again.

Then check out le went food court nearby eat.

After dat juz go home alr, so tired I slept from 2pm to near 7pm.

But the chalet was really very fun! I enjoyed myself alot

Hope to have more chalets tgt as a class in future!!

Ear Surgery, Com RAM upgraded,

2009-11-21T01:17:00.001+08:00

Now alr Saturday 1.20am! lol

Anw, on Wed had gone to chinese Sinseh.

Then I did acupuncture!
I was scared at 1st, i see TV those long and big sewing needles,

But this one very small tiny and dun look lyk for sewing at all.

The needles poke me @ near the ear, at forehead and juz abuv de nose bridge.

Can feel alittle pain but lyk small ant bite so ok.

And b4 went sinseh ah,
I went swimming den my ear block prob came bak again.

Went doctor he said ear infection. So Friday had to go bak do mini surgery.

Den do surgery le my ear super clear hearing.

Doc said ppl w/ sinus always get this ear block prob.

Cos of *chim stuff abt ear and nose connection*

Then today (Friday) my father took leave!!
I wanted use his laptop to play again.

But when slping dat tym he took back to his room.

Then he wanted to play Left4Dead on main com.

He try on cannot. I try oso cannot.

At 1st i tot is de usual prob. After on off on off switch will work.

But totally cannot on at all.

Then I couldnt play!!! I want use his laptop,

But dare not take it while somemore he was slping.

I lyk nothing to do... Went to cut hair and doctor for surgery.

Came bak 1+ he using the laptop....

I play piano for unusually long time.

Then go my room play psp, oso quite boring leh.

No choice I just go to slp at arnd 2+ near 3.

Woke up 4.40pm lyk dat,

Father not at home, main com gone. So i noe he go repair.

Then he came bak w/ it, rrepaired.

Plus the RAM upgraded!! From 1GB to 2GB.

Com will be alot faster now.

Though most of the time im using his laptop lol.

Then he will wanna use main com play L4D cos laptop graphic not dat gd.

Now so tired.. bye

Cabal Whole Day Maintenance

2009-11-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

SO SIAN!
Today Cabal Maintenance from 4am till now not over!!
Actually suppose 6pm can le.

But now extended TILL FURTHER NOTICE!

Played Warcraft whole day.

Wait so long alr..

Tmr am gonna go swimming in the morning!

Class 2e1 and 3e1 gathering

2009-11-15T23:40:00.001+08:00

2E1'08 got chalet!
Have not paid the $12 yet...

And I'm oso not sure whether im staying over or not.

Cos I really short of money now.

Then stay over chalet, i must have lots of spare cash.

So can spend on food and other stuff.

3e1'09 got gathering for BBQ.

And early morning got Escape Theme Park if got enuff ppl going.

I really REALLY wanna go Escape Theme Park!
Seriously many years nvr go le!
But den so ex... $17.80....

Den rmb i have 2e1 chalet to pay too.

Den BBQ is $5 quite ok.

Really nid to work out a budget or sth...

HopeI can attend both and enjoy very much!!

Today did nothign much de usual.
Play play play. Ytd played till 3am summore!
I wanna play till 3am today again!
But hope father wont wake up and off de internet.

Played whole Day

2009-11-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

Ok. I played game the whole day!
I'm a game addict!

I want to watch movies.

But dunno wad nice movies to download.

My grandma gonna bring me to a Chinese sinseh

This Wednesday to see my nose problem -

Sinus
Which is my nose forever blocked.

Bad problem for me.....

Ytd gave Miss Koh my Colour Deficiency Paper.

I tot wanna show her onli,

Den give to Mrs Chng cos form teacher.

Then she just take and keep it.

Ask me fotocopy give Mrs Chng another.

But after schl le and i dun have the original paper w/me.
Hopefully Mrs Chng can go find Miss Koh for it.

Bad Romance MV, Holidays!

2009-11-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

BAD ROMANCE MUSIC VIDEO

Watch it! I feel it's good! Today is Friday 13/11/2009.

End of STEP Program! Free from school! Free from waking up super early!

I feel like going swimming nowadays. But I must find the right pool & right day to go.

Hope to enjoy holidays 100%.

Physics Test, STEP programme, Bad Romance

2009-11-10T00:57:00.004+08:00

Today had Physics Test on Waves!
I aim 13/20.... It's so damn difficult...

While lots of ppl said it was quite easy....

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My Cabal, I am currently lyk playing Force Shielder now.

I wanna chiong lvl! But very lazy!
Skill exp I can afk for long and skill.

I want Shirafune my FB be lvl 140!

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Lady Gaga's new song Bad Romance sound good!
Although a little techno, I dun really like techno.

But got the pop feel, and the tune nice.

Can't wait for the music video.
Heard its very nice!

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This week,
Miss Felicia's last week being in TPSS.

Will miss her very much. Goodbye Miss Felicia!
Good Luck in wadeva ur doing!

Very Very tired

2009-11-05T00:48:00.001+08:00

School STEP very very sian and tiring leh...

Secondary Three Elevation Program (I Think)

What's the use of trying to prepare us for Sec 4 now

When we won't bother paying attention

And being our best now?

Almost every1 shld b in holiday/exams-r-over mood le!
Make me feel so tired wake up early.

I wan to take mc for a day!
But I dunno which day to.

Cos I will only take mc on a day that is not so impt.

Anw, Monday did nothing much.

More of slack. Tuesday, SS start new topic.

And today Wednesday (Cos now its Thursday 12.50am @_@)
Maths 2 hours!! Very tired and bored.

Learn new topic oso sommore and its so dam difficult i dunno how do properly

Last period is Felicia Physics.

Start new topic oso!!!!! And its abt Waves

She teach so fast!! And i feel this topic is the hardest so far to me!

Test on Physics coming up on Monday..

Stupid Vicky Ng Ah Meng wan the test one!
I hope i will do well for it. Though I know i wont study 4 it.

Considering End-Year i only managed to study abit.

Now is Holiday! 100% relax/play!

And tmr got piano! NO! Learn new song!
Very difficult! Why everyting so difficult one??!!
But at least i not so stressed now cos exam done.

Wish Bro good luck for his O lvls get good results!

Piano Theory Exam Over

2009-11-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

Ytd I took the piano theory exam Grade 5.

I tink i will pass bah. But of cos wont get distinction.

De exam started 10am.

Then venue is in SMU.

Singapore Management University.

The Admin building. De area rite, got many many SMU buildings.

Then my father had to drive around to find de admin building.

Den I saw dat the building is so near Fort Canning Park

Where Gaga held concert!
I felt so old and big when i went into de lift to go 10 floor

With all the other candidates, all children small small short short.

After dat enter de exam room, got other older ppl.

So i dun feel dat old anymore lol.

Then oso ah! Got a Grandma dere oso taking exam leh!
So "outstanding" lol. But good lah old still learn.

Got squeeze 134 candidates in a room.
Air con very shiok oso.

Then Grade 1 ~ 3 is 1h 30min.

Grade 4 & 5 is 2h.

Den the paper state dat after 40mins of exam.

U can choose to submit paper and leave early.

So after 40mins i alr finish.
At 1st the Grade 1 ~ 3 can go 1st.

Then de invigilator din announce Grade 4 & 5 can oso go.

So wait for 10mins....

None of de grade 4 and 5 left.
So i asked de invigilator can Grade 5 go now oso.

So can, den i go off, de rest dunno still stay dere lol

Hope I really DO pass de Grade 5 theory exam.

If not i cannot take Grade 6 Practical exam le...

Dying Spell

2009-10-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

Today slack.

Did some Chinese Caligraphy.

Very boring... And then Mdm Loh oso gave us free period.

After dat go for HDB Newspaper collections CIP.

Actually paired with this grp 2 malay boys.

Assigned 7th Floor, me and Darren partners.

Go there see 2 different ppl.

So in the end just partner with them.

Cleared 7th Floor very fast. Only 1 person.

Den go bak down, Mr Ng assign us go 12 & 13 floor.

De 2 Sec 1s go 13 floor.

Me and Darren take 12 floor.

Den de lift so dam slow every floor stop.

So we climb all de way up 12 floor.

Den i start to feel very dizzy cannot breathe properly.

Vision went very blur... Lyk very bright light shining too bright.

Den leg got cramped. Sat down @ stairs for long tym.

Fadzli & Weiheng came up on de way..

In de end went down and rest @ 1st floor of cos.

Den felt better. Can see clearer abit.

Breathing still bad. Leg was cramped.

Another cher i dunno who do some Leg Cramp Exercise 4 me.

Den cramp gone.

I kana this b4. At Pri 6.

This is my Physical Prob.

I have Hernia b4. My internal part got swell b4.

Which is my leg muscles dere.
So 4 some of this reason i cant strain too much 4 exercise.

Din know climbing 12 floors is considered too strenuous...

Now feel better alr. After rest and water.

Thanks all who helped me and cared!

Die

2009-10-23T21:44:00.001+08:00

So sad today...

Get F9 for A Maths..

My first F9 in my whole life....

And i studied for it summore....

This proves im stupid...

Bye...

Seoul Garden Celebration

2009-10-21T21:46:00.003+08:00

Today morning,

Play Cabal again! Decided to rejoin.

Den today organised to go Seoul Garden eat buffet.

To celebrate exams ended.

Den play Cabal w/ m2 till 12.55pm lyk dat!

And the meeting tym was 1pm!!

After dat i rush to Tampines MRT.

Was around 10mins late.

Chi Ju, Daniel, Darren & Naveen were there alr.

Den we all stand there tok tok.

Wait 4 m2 to come.

After den come alr.

We actually invited Aizen & Shermei.

But in de end dey din come cos got no space.

Seoul Garden was not dat nice i find.

I din enjoy eating!! Den variety oso not alot.

So funny the steamboat. (Very small one)
I cracked an egg inside.

Chiju Darren Daniel find it disgusting. Lol

Den i ate the egg lor. All in the soup.

Den Naveen put de whole egg in de soup.

Make Hard Boiled Egg haha

After dat, Daniel cracked egg on de hot plate.

He say try for fun see can fry!
Den in de end he ate the white part only. Yolk left.

De soup aint dat nice..

De Uncooked meat were quite nice though!

Got drinks and Ice cream i went to add dem to make

A Pepsi Float! Haha very nice leh!
Only me naveen chi ju daniel ate alot first.

Den when lyk proceed to dessert we all,

Darren den start to eat alot.

Marshall ate very little talk alot!
Den after every1 ate finish.

Marshall eat. and eat alot of de uncooked meat!

After dat played Who Wants to Be A Millionaire on PSP.

Got a qn i dunno, asked chiju.

Den chiju start to play de game all de way!
Play for quite long! den we all stood up behind chiju to watch him play!
Actually quite fun lah! De qns so tough and some r lame.

Ate finish, went to arcade cos chiju wan.

Walk inside arcade awhile only...

Den went to Toys R Us play play dere.

Got 2 Panda Soft toys.

Den dese 2 ppl (duunno who) dey put

1 panda on top of de other!

We all saw laugh!

After dat, daniel, naveen, darren went home.

Me chiju marshall go lan.

Wanted to play Cabal there, but in the end only a few com have

We all took de coms all dun have.

So played Jurrasic Park on Warcraft.

Den played Audi.

Go home after dat!!

Haha exam over so fun!!
I play lyk crazy now!
Bye!

Exams Are finally over!!!!

2009-10-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

Today last 2 papers done!
And Oral oso!
Now feel less stressed.

But then so sad today...

I really left at least 8parts blank for A Maths.

Den Physics was also very difficult.

I will not fail Physics but A Maths i tink will.

Tomorrow going to Seoul Garden Buffet.

To celebrate exam finish!!
Now very tired alr...

But must hardcore gaming now!!~

A Maths & Physics not over!

2009-10-18T13:56:00.002+08:00

I've been playing from Thurs ~ Sat...

There's still A Maths & Physics Exam!
I havent start at all! I tink im gonna die!!

I oso have Piano Theory Exam on 31st October..

Its on Saturday. Im not so ready oso!
I'm more very very worried for A Maths.

Everyting do in class i dunno how do.
And do so slow oso.

The PE Blog created le! And halfway done.

Can go visit for fun:
http://physico-olympism.blogspot.com/

Chinese Paper 2 Today

2009-10-15T09:01:00.000+08:00

Chinese Paper 2 ltr @ 11am!
Now stay at home slack still~
Ytd whole day slack too!

K, de Bio paper ytd.

Luckily it wasnt de Goh Ter Yang style.

If not i really cry.

But still, alot i dunno how do.

So i tink i will fail too.

Since Bio is my worst subject.

K now i go play le. Den get rdy go schl 4 Chinese!

6 More Papers to go!

2009-10-12T23:16:00.001+08:00

Ok, today was very bad!!
The Chem was first paper.

It really was a Killer Paper!
Damn the Mole! I was hoping Godzilla could make it easier again

After Mole made her make it hard.

Section A around 10 qns tikam dunno.

Section B a few qns dunno anyhow.

Section C I did wrongly.

= Chem may fail.

Geog was ok! I feel i will pass!
I studied hard for Rivers & Coast.

Nvr study Human Development at all (8,9,10)

Let's c hw much i'll get /25 for de human part...

After exams today,
Ate at Mcdonald with WeiHeng & Marshall.
Played Psp de Who Wants to Be A Millionare.

Come home slack till 8pm.

Studying maths until now @_@
I feel so stupid studying maths!
Alot of qns which im sure is easy to every1

I find it super difficult tink tink cannot do.

Hopefully tmr Test EASY!!!

And I'm so scared of Wednesday Bio!!
Got SO MANY Chapters. And i havent start at all.

So means 1 day have to learn all chapters..

And bio such alot to memorise!!!!
I wanna have mc on dat day...

But den got Eng Oral 2...

Preparing for Monday!

2009-10-10T22:31:00.002+08:00

Zzz Today whole day play nvr study till 6+.

I start studying only for Geog at 6+.

Den only learn how to draw de diagrams.

Still got ALOT ALOT to memorise

Plus got Chem oso and again to say, its Killer Paper!

I hope i can memorise geog quick den start on Chem!
But i tink only tmr den can finish geog.

I dun tink chem can. Its too hard!

Ytd i found alot of fun Psp games!!
I kip playing lyk crazy.

Addicted alr den dowan study!!!
Must do well!!

Social Studies & English Paper 2

2009-10-08T18:40:00.001+08:00

Ok. Today piano class was so boring.

Continue to do the theory papers.

I felt SO sleepy till 50% asleep 50% anyhow do work.

I slept very late ytd oso mah.

Tmr is the dam Social Studies Exam!!
And now its 6.45pm and i still have not started.

I tink im gonna do real bad for ss but can pass bah.

English Paper 2 juz pray it will be easy.

But i know i can do de.

Den on Monday got 2 max memorising papers..

Especially there's chem!!
Mole said Chem is gonna be a killer paper...

Those score below 45/50 WILL fail.

And dat = Whole class.

Anw now nid worry abt SS first.

I still gt a few hours left to start studying for it!!
JY to me! And all hu are studying!
I hope i can mmrise in these few hours..

End-Year Exam Wave

2009-10-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

Very sickly... Like zombie...

Today in schl not much.

Mdm Loh din come for maths.

I din receive de h/w to do so i nvr do~
Then Geog extra lesson today.

Everything on River & Coast I dunno.

The End Year Exam wave of exams coming alr!!!
I havent study for dem yet!
I tried studying chem but everything all 4get after finish.

I find so hard! Bio very hard to study oso.

Then I tink i dun wan study alr lah.
This Friday SS i'll die, Eng i will ok.

Stress more from piano summore.

I got theory exam coming soon too.
Piano cher rushing and make me do ALOT of work.

And I hate the theory work all so hard oso.

Today still very sick.

Cough until heart pain (physically!!)
Then everytime evening feel super sleepy.

Cant stay up to study...
I hope I will still do well though I not studying hard...

Happy Birthday Wei Heng!

2009-10-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

Candid Shot! Bday Boi!

~ Happy Birthday Wei Heng! ~

15 Years Old le!

May you do well for End-Year since its so near ur bday...

4th October 1994