2012, the year of calamity in all aspects?,
Thursday, January 26, 2012.
once again I come back here at my most aimless part of my life...I don't understand the point of living.
Why must I study? Why must I have certificates? A Diploma? A Degree?
All to get a good job. But what's there to a job?
Everything can be answered but I can throw more questions.
I think these 3 words seem to best answer "Why am I born?"
It is "Born To Die".
If you're born with so many incorrigible aspects, I don't see how to live on.
I never get what I want, the stuff with utmost importance I mean.
Sure enough I may say I want Money, Good Grades etc.
These are actually trivial matters.
Having money and good grades does not really make you worth living.
That's my opinion...
I want the best of personality, which is impossible to obtain in my sake.
I've already tried many ways and persistently believed I can change.
It's already been over 2 years, I'm the same old bloody introvert, unfriendly, quiet, lazy, incompetent bastard.
I don't think I'm worth anybody's time/friendship/acknowledgement at all.
I may have a certain amount of talent in music, not poor, not physically disabled.
But I'd rather give them all up to those who truly need them,
and in exchange erase my existence.
Come on, I vigilantly watched my surroundings for far too long already.
I know what's what.
Turns out I'm hardly worth anything.
I can't ever get things right.. anything..
I can't achieve good grades to go to the school I want
I can't make the first move in talking to people
I can't make an effort to start a conversation
I can't make an effort to organise events
I can't create music
I can't choose the right path to walk down
I can't shape myself up be it physically/mentally/emotionally/academically
I can't, just about everything
Please God, I'm already torn down.
So just sweep the Earth & remove me & my existence from the world.
Erase Me.
Thank You & much appreciation
