Rained today, whole evening + near whole nite.

I dont care wad y'all are opinionated here.

I will only come here to feel -ve.

Last week had a row of tests,

Fell ill too. During A M, E M tests.

Geog test was when I juz recovered on Fri.

But den de day b4 I was still sick, couldn't study much.

Surprisingly I made big improvements in both maths.

yah, im very happy abt it. But only a short while.

Wad abt the O LEVELS huh? Will I do tis well?

And I still feel maths (both) is my weakest.

Den today took bio test.

I sure do very badly, but can pass.

But being in E1, I (myself, not other ppl, myself) set my own standards.

Being in 4E1, I aim for High A1.
Now impossible le.

Anw crazy 1. Ytd couldnt study @ all.
In de end I juz briefly read 2ru. Last time for bio,

I used to memorise every single thing and make notes.

Slack lah. Or more lyk, lousy LQ brain.

K today oso took Chinese test which I missed out last week.

It was VERY OK! Cos I dont care how I do for chinese lol.

I tink will get 20+ only, it was kinda hard. But I dont care!

Anw, I am such a.... not bastard, not stupid.

All these are too un-insulting to describe me.
I am (A word dat doesnt exist which is de climax infinity worst of all)
I envy everyone arnd me, n really every1.

I even envy little ants dat i c crawling arnd.

In my eyes, every living or non-living things are always better den me.
I wish I could be more lyk all of dem....

Detest myself alot.

For example, when i c de ants,

I tink, ants lead a nice life, at least much better den mine.

If I was a choice over ants, ppl will definitely choose ants to me.

Ants are really hardworking, cute, strong and all.

Im nothing compared to them.

I also hate my mum & dad for giving birth to me.

I hope dey hate me too!
If only i dont exist... I have 2 much, as well as caused alot of problems.

Anw nvm, on de brighter side,

less den 2 more yrs I can listen to The Fame Monster's 7th song!
S.H.I.C.D. <3>