Got quite alot of h/w a day and den there's some tests.

Everyday feel tired feel lyk sleeping.

Hard to do h/w. Sleep @ 11+ nowadays.

Wake up oso will tired. everytime tired.

Today did a Chem test on lyk end year lyk dat.

This Chem Test was to band us and grp us into different groups.

Of the Sec 4 cohort for the IN-FOCUS lessons.

I did extremely bad im sure. Its so dam dam difficult.

I tink i will end up in the 4th or 5th class of In focus....

Irritating lah!! I wan first class!! Den I will benefit...

And then, 1st PE lesson take height and weight.

Daniel measure de height cos he is tallest in class.

Ok, my weight inc by 0.5kg I guess.

But den my height din inc at all! I cant believe it!!
I wanna die! im depressed! stopped growing???

I dowan to be this SHORT!! 167cm not enuff!
Even de other shorter den me ppl in class have chance to grow a few more years lah!!
Mine is stopped growing alr lah!!!!! 1 whole year not even a 0.1cm inc??

sob sob Im so short. Wish to be 180cm den can stop growing!
And den im in TAF again i guess.

Cos no inc in height but got gain abit weight which makes alot of difference.

And den I am planning to stop learning piano for this year.

To really have time to concentrate on O lvls.

If have normal lesons its ok lah

But if take lessons I will be having Practical and Theory Exams coming.

Den I will have use some time to practice mah.

Even if I cont lessons w/o taking exams for this year,

Wasting money. I take lessons to take exams to get better mah.

(Though I dun feel lyk im gettting any better at all)

Sec 4 alr lo! I havent chose my path yet.

I dunno wad courses to take and all so until now,

I cannot decide to go jc, poly, ite.

Actually I feel I've decided I want a music course.
I love music. But as aforementioned, Im sucky at music.
I dun tink i'll be good enuff to go to music schls de scores are quite high.

So, if music not good, wad else am i good at?

Eng - B3 (ok but not excellent, cant only rely on english)
Chinese - C5 (dats bad ok? but i dun really care for chinese)
E Maths - A1 (Ok mayb this may help?)
A Maths - F9 (No! I have no talent for A maths after all!)
Bio - B4 (Mr Ang's exam papers are easy! But O lvl not sure)
Phy - B3 (I feel can do better, but wad will i combine w/ to help in future?)
Chem - C5 (Omg help me!! Chem is impt!! Julie isint helping me at all!)
SSGeog - B3 ( I hope to get A1 but SS is lyk so difficult.)

Now is there anything im good at??!

And I wan go poly!! Cos i tink thats where i belong, 2nd home is ITE.

JC I badly wanna go cos of the "status" and its direct easy go University.

But I feel I cmi to JC, I can go average ones, but I dowan if its average.

I feel lyk I'm so helpless to almost everything..
I need alot alot of help...

But I dowan any help from anyone at all!
I wanna survive only by myself!
But cant do so...